I can't deal with it. My mum treats me like a baby. my brother, is a curel violent malicious twat. My boyfriend couldnt give a crap if i lived or died. My best friend doesn't want to be seen in public with a freak like me. My dad hated us so much he had an affair and then topped himself. And a friend on ryl has shot himself and lived. but is goig to be sectioned no doubt and forget about us completely. I hate me, im self-pitying, narcissistic, gloomy, a liar manipulative, sneaky, cruel, ugly, short, stupid, a blight on the world and an attention seeker. I can cut my wrists and hide under my duvet. I wont even have to see it spurt everywhere. I wouldnt have to burn the blade either. Wouldnt ned to be sterile, doesnt matter if your not coming back later on. Cut deeper than ever before. Just go to sleep in warm damp blood. Convince me i shouldnt do it. Please
yours sincerely
the freak x
Callum... I freakin' love you and you better not...
Be stronger than Nathan please.
I mean, my best friend doesn't really act like my best friend either...
And I don't have a boyfriend or girlfriend, and the only boyfriend I EVER had went insane...
I know what it's like to feel horrible and unloved...
So just stay and talk.
I wanted to cut today too, but someone convinced me not to... before he shot himself... in the hand...
Okay, I'm sorry if I didn't help... I'm just rambling...
callum you are NOT a freak
you are none of those things ok
i care about you, alot
and nathan will be ok, he just needs to sort stuff out
i am so sorry about your dad *extra massive cuddles*
if your bf doesnt give a crap he aint right for you
brothers are meant to be twats tbh lol
and your mum just wants to treasure you forever
please dont cut like that
*holds*
talk to me instead
try and relieve it a lil
There will always be a happy ending. If its not happy then its not yet the end.
I got it all here. Lighter. wont need that. pencil sharpener blade. Already burned. Blunt blade from a flip knife i bought in greece. another used sharpener blade. A blade from a razor burnt at one end. i used it in a starbucks bathroom in todays meet. How nice am i? A blade snapper off a knife from the kitchen. also burnt and blunt. looks like i got nothing anyway...
For what it's worth, I think you are the cutest, most fun and amazing guy I've ever met. Seeing you today just having fun in that fountain really put a smile on my face and I just hope so bloody much that you can get through what you're dealing with and can enjoy every day like you did today
*hugs you lots*
Please take care 'cause we all care about you so much
xx
The only time you will find real light is when you're searching in the dark..
Oh no, i stand corrected. Ive got a perfect, sharp, shiny,unburnt razor. Tis like a shiny grey rose. Oh sry for plugging at my time of suicide, but why dont you check out my poem in the creative corner. Actually no, tis depressing and rubbish. but the razor. tis beautiful
Callum you're freakin' AH-MAZING...
I can't take anymore people doing awful things to themselves today...
You don't deserve it...
If you want to talk I'm here...
I don't want YOU to get hurt...
I can deal with pain...
But it's stupid for you to do something like that.
You're an amazing person. You help so many peope on here.
And the blade only eases the pain for seconds. In the long run it makes things worse...
callum, you don't know me too well...but we were in the joint convo on msn yesterday i think it was. please don't do anything to yourself hun, it aint worth it. im sorry all of that happened to you, but there's other ways to deal with it hun. please, just think x
Laura xxx
just stay strong..the thing that's getting me through at the moment thinking about nathan, he doesnt want to come back on here and find out that his friend is gone...
Callum...please sweetheart....I'm sorry I'm no good with words but we love you so much...*hugs even more*
Please put away the 'tools'.
Just...stay with us...keep distracting yourself...keep talking to us...please?
xx
The only time you will find real light is when you're searching in the dark..
