Triggering (OD) - Of all days to forget...

[Namaste]

Of all days for my parents to forget to lock the med cabinet...

i feel horrible...and no that I haven't figured out the combination, but if the lock was on there chances are I'd never open it...

I just feel so worthless and fat and gross...
Been "binging" a lot lately... nothing major, but I mean just eating makes me feel guilty...

And the stupid medicine cabinet is unlocked...

Please... distract me...

[Namaste]

Well, I can't really get out of the house... my parents don't let me go places a lot especially when they're at work... and I have social anxiety so I don't exactly want to leave...
And I'm not supposed to have people over either...
It would probably help but it's pretty much out of the question...

And I don't know... my "friend" who used to be my sole means of support, is being kinda mean, and overall I just feel worthless...

[Namaste]

I don't know if any of my friends are up yet, but I suppose I'll try making some calls in a little while...

He just said I was whining about this stuff, and that I'm doing it for attention...
And I just do... I almost always do but sometimes it's worse than others...

[Cazki]

Please dont od. Im sorry yoiur feeling like this and that your struggling. *Hugs you* Keep fighting you can get through this. Dont give up. I care about you and i dont want you to get hurt. None of this is your fault. Try listening to music, doing jobs to keep yourself occupied, watching a movie you could also look at the distractions section http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum...splay.php?f=22 It may also help you to have a look at the big distractions page. Im glad you were able to make a thread and talk to us about it. Well done im really proud of you for that!! Keep talking to us we are all here for you.

Take care best wishes Ian

[Namaste]

Uh... just went in the cabinet to have a little looksie...
Bad me...
Um, but there's not much... theonly thing I think that would kill me are the leftovwer painkillers from my sister getting her wisdom teeth out and her anti-seizure meds (which I would never ever take because she NEEDS those...). My mom even took the tylenol, which sucks because I have a headache. And there is lots of other stuff but I didn't bother looking at it...

But I can't get ahold of any of my friends... and I hate myself so much right now...

[Namaste]

Even here I'm ignored... sorry... I'm just being selfish... but I really need to talk...

[Namaste]

I'm invisble in real life and on here... goody...

I feel so suckish... and I also feel like I'm talking to a wall...

But I'm bored... and worthless... and a horrible person...

Who's selfish... people aren't replying because there are people with REAL problems who need help...
I don't think I have enough meds to kill myself anyway...


I'm sorry...

[momo432]

You're not invisible! I know how it feels when no one seems to be replying to your threads, but they will eventually!
And, also, you are not worthless or a horrible person! I don't know you, but I'm sure you're nice!

It's good you don't have enough meds to kill yourself! yeah, you want it now, but, if it doesn't work you'll just feel even worse, and if it does work everyone who knows you will be very upset!

Don't be sorry!
I'm sorry this is a very pathetic and stupid reply to your thread! I just can't think of anything else to say right now.

Isobel
xx

[Namaste]

I feel invisible wherever I go... although it does seem to come in handy sometimes...

I want to try so bad, I'm just so afraid it won't work...

Thanks for the reply...

[Chiasma]

Oh im sorry. ill talk to you if you like. big hug! pm me if you like. is there anything i can do. Your strong. You may not have eough to od, but please dont take em anyway. Please
Callum x

[momo432]

I know exactly how you feel. =[ But you are not invisible! If you were I wouldn't be replying to your thread!

You can pm me anytime if you want to talk =]

xx