Triggering (Suicide) - I can relate too.. ya'know!

[Harmless_Baby]

I have read all of your posts and like most i can relate.. i am 19 from the uk and feel my life has just been a big joke, i’ve been beaten, neglected, abused and feel that the best place for me is 6ft under your all probably reading this and thinking u sad bitch but i have tried to cope with it, tried to confront it but i cant and suicide seems to be the best way to deal with it and forget it. i’m not a selfish person and am not doing this to spite anyone. i care for everyone i know but cannot love them if i dont love myself. if anyone can suggest any other options i’d be more than happy to listen but i need to do something quick and easy and preferably painless... please help.

Sammy x

[The Midnight Crazies]

Sammy,

You say you need 'something quick and easy and preferably painless', perhaps you could let time do it job? Quick? Not sure, easy? Oh hell yes, Painless? Maybe... I hear the pain in your words and I'm by no way minimalizing that but forgive me: you're only 19: a helluva lot can change, it took me years to realize that this self hating, depression path was going straight into some dark pit I'd not be able to climb out of anymore. Work on loving yourself, it can be done, I'm serious. Perhaps not on your own: use all help you can get and actually find helpful: be that shrinks, online self help sites, meds, friends, on my behalf AA meetings. But you are worth it and even without you noticing I'm sure there are many people who care deeply about you, tho you're not able to return that favor, yet. Therefore, yes, I think you should let time do its job and try to make the best of this life here and now.

PM me if needed.

*hugs tight*

Marte

[craola]

Hi hun, welcome to RYL :)
I can completley empathise with you, I really can.
Suicide is not the answer though, have a look at this thread here, its really well written and will hopefully make you see just what suicide does to those around you. There is no quick and easy fix for problems like this, you need to talk to someone, a friend or family or your GP, then they will be able to help you and see what the best way to fix things is.
Give me a poke if you want to talk, im 19 as well :)
Take care
Aimee xx