Scared I might be an addict

[The War Doctor]

I'm not sure I should be posting this here, but anyway.

About a month ago I took an overdose of paracetamol. I'd been having a really bad week, and at the time I felt like the OD was a bit drastic, cos I wasn't trying to kill myself, I just get kinda self-destructive sometimes and use it as a way to relieve pressure.. but getting back to the point, I've overdosed a few times since then, and every time, it takes less and less to trigger me to OD, and even now, I'm having a pretty bad night and I'm kinda itching to down a handful of pills... I'm really scared that I might be getting addicted to painkillers.. help?

[Lil'MissLaLa]

*hugs* im sorry ure feeling this way at the moment. However i dont think ure becoming 'addicted' to the pills as such, maybe more of the action/pain from it? I know when i was younger i used to do the exact same thing because at the time cutting didn't feel 'enough' of a release, but suicide was 'too far', so taking a lower amount made me feel more ..well..calm.
But, please remember that repeatedly taking od's no matter how small they may seem is highly dangerous and can cause considerable damage. Do you have anyone that you can talk to about this?
love and hugs
Dani
xx

[Porcelain Child]

Hi hun...

If you think your addicted to pills then you should try and get some help.. cos pills can do some much harms to your body...

But like the above post.. i think your more addicted to the pain and the feelings it gives you... Its like SI...

Do you know what your triggers are?

*squishes*

[rockaroni]

Pain killers can do some seroius damage to the body, even in small overdoses. I think it's the liver it affects... but yes, even if it's not the feeling as such of taking the pills, it may be the action, and you might really need some counselling or something to help you through this. Maybe go to your GP and say what you're doing, to find out if you have done any damage and to get some help... please take care x