Triggering (SI/Suicide) - Back from hospital!! *Trigger OD too maybe*

[PrincessVegeta_x]

Hey guys, I don't know if you know but I have been in hospital for a while because I tried to kill myself. I won't say how, it's easy to guess.

Obviously it didn't work, but the doctor at the hospital suggested I go inpatient, even if it was only for a few days just so I could talk to the staff about my feelings... so I would be safe for a while etc.

I have just arrived home, they let me out about half an hour ago and my mum picked me up. She said to me that she would let me hurt myself if it helped me to feel good about myself, but she didn't want me to try and kill myself again.

Sounds weird, coming from my mum, that she would let her daughter cut in an attempt to make herself feel better. Hmm...

Anyway the staff at the hospital said I was allowed out as long as I keep taking all the medication they gave me (they've given me prescriptions and told my mum to look after my meds, for obvious reasons). They also want me to be kept under close watch, especially at night. So my mum needs to know what I'm doing at all times. Kinda sucks.

I also have to go back there twice a week for therapy sessions, so I get to see the friend I made while there. Which is a good thing.

I hope I don't relapse.

Anyway just thought I'd let you know. x

[xxhappydaysxx]

Hey hun

I hope your stay at hospital has helped you.

what your mum said is hard to deal with, but in some situations if cutting keeps you from ODing... maybe thats what she sees? that at the moment if its preventing you from suicide? I dont know. Have you tried distractions from cutting such as wriiting, drawing, going for a walk, writing on yourself in red pen? These can often help in the heat of the moment when you feel an urge to cut, and give you something to do with your hands.

I hope theraphy helps you. I am glad you got a friend out of this experience.
Take care of yourself and keep safe
xxxxxxxxx

[PrincessVegeta_x]

It stops me from ODing and prevents me from trying to kill myself. I didn't have my blade when I tried to kill myself (the attempt I am on about that got me into hospital this time) so I wasn't thinking straight.

I will try going for a walk and writing on myself with a red pen, I don't know if I have one if not I will just go and buy one.

Thanks for replying. xxx

[xxhappydaysxx]

Its hard when things are like that. But anything which stops you killing yourself is ok for now, although cutting obviously isnt the best method.

Thats great youre thinking of new methods :)

Take care hun, Im around if you ever need someone
xxx

[B-S-F]

*hugs*
Really glad you're ok hun!
Sorry that you felt so that low, I know how it feels.
Maybe its a good thing that you're underwatch for a little bit, its only to protect you. Glad that you still get to see you're friend.
If you want to talk, feel free to PM me.
Take care, *hugs* xxx