Triggering (SI) - Worried about friend

Delphine · 17-07-2008, 12:35 AM

I'm very confused. Yesterday my best friend got in a serious car wreck, along with her mom. They are fine now, just really banged up and healing, but I had to be the support because their family was freaking and I was the only one not crying. It took till now to dawn on me I could've lost the closest 2 friends I have in the world- almost the only 2 friends I have- and I feel so sick. I'm trying not to cut, trying not to hurt myself but I CAN'T handle this. I feel so sick, and my life goes on with work and people and the whole time I feel like something inside's breaking. I don't know what to do, I don't even know why I'm posting this except I don't feel I can tell anyone else. Their not in trouble now, but I'm just getting hit with this now.

Wolfstar · 17-07-2008, 12:43 AM

God, that must have been so scary for you, hunny. But try to focus on the positives. You didn't lose them. They're going to be alright. Don't let yourself get worked up over the 'what if's.
Stay safe, hun.
x

Delphine · 17-07-2008, 01:05 AM

Yeah, but the worrying gets me every time.

Something that's nagging is that a couple months ago I had a nightmare (which is normal) about this situation and it was almost exactly the same, except in the nightmare they died. I don't believe in dreams coming true, and I'm not superstitious, but it freaks me out all the same.