Triggering (SI) - i dont know what to do...i need help :'((

Sunset Uphoria · 15-07-2008, 07:58 PM

i have blades. 5 of them. i want to cut...i NEED to cut. the urge is suffocating me, dragging me under. im trying to escape but the urge is too overwhelming. im so upset, i just dont want to be here anymore. i want to die, why cant i just make my misery end!

l'il esky · 15-07-2008, 08:02 PM

oh hun. is there anything that is upsetting you at the moment?

can you go out for a walk or get yourself away from the tools? try the list of distractions, see if there is anything there to.

but keep posting if it helps you keep away from hurting yourself xx

Sunset Uphoria · 15-07-2008, 08:04 PM

ive tried everything. i cant cope. my friend is in hospital, she tried to kill herself. i should have been there for her. i needed to help her, she needed help and i failed her. nothing seems worth it anymore. im sick of life.

B-S-F · 15-07-2008, 08:06 PM

*hugs* Be careful hunni!!
Wish I could take all your pain away!!
I'm always here if you want to talk, PM me!
Be careful!! Thinkng of you!! xxx

Sunset Uphoria · 15-07-2008, 08:16 PM

cutting will help everything. i thought of overdosing, but it doesn't cause pain. cutting causes pain, and i need to cut so bad, i haven't done for years, but now i need to. everythings falling apart, i dont know what to do

Sunset Uphoria · 15-07-2008, 08:19 PM

but it blocks it out, blocks everything out. oh well, i've done it anyway :'(

Sleepless123 · 15-07-2008, 08:26 PM

Hi.It sounds like things are seriously bad.i am sorry for your pain.Does your cut need medical attention and how you are doing now?i hope you are safe.Please seek help from a doctor/hospital or crisis team if you need it.It may not be easy but it is likely to be very worth it and please keep posting if you feel it helps.Take care.

Sunset Uphoria · 15-07-2008, 08:29 PM

sorry...just ignore me, im becoming self obsessed again. you all have far more important problems, and im moaning about insignificant things. sorry x

l'il esky · 15-07-2008, 09:51 PM

sending hugs sweetie, make sure you look after the wound. you can get through this, dont let it consume you! its a slip up

have you seen your friend since the od?
xx

SammiKins · 16-07-2008, 12:27 AM

Don't worry about this.
Everyone has days when they can't go without cutting, no matter how hard they try.
You shouldn't be ashamed because of a slip up.

In the future, why don't you try doing what I do? Put the blades in another room (I put mine upstairs) and go somewhere else, where you physically have to go and get them if you want them.

That stops me sometimes.
x