Triggering (SI/Suicide) - Parents fighting, feeling bad... help?

Netsirkylime · 15-07-2008, 12:21 AM

I don't know what to do. I don't want to be here anymore. I just want to get away, and I don't know how else to do that other than suicide. I don't want to listen to my parents anymore. They argue all the time, the insult each other behind their backs. I don't know what to freakin' do. I don't like this at all. I don't want to be here anymore. I don't know what to do. I just wanna cut myself open over and over again. I'm so tired, emotionally. I don't want them to split up... but what if that's for the best?

B-S-F · 15-07-2008, 12:24 AM

*holds you gently* Cant offer any advice, but I do know what its like to have parents that argue 24/7.
PM me if you want to talk!! xxx

Netsirkylime · 15-07-2008, 12:30 AM

I just don't want to do this anymore...

Porcelain Child · 15-07-2008, 12:34 AM

*squishes Emily*

Sometimes Crazy · 15-07-2008, 01:02 AM

I can imagine how this would make you feel and I hear how it is affecting you. Perhaps you could talk to them individually over how you feel about their words? I and other young people I know have witnessed similar and I'm so sorry you are going through this as well. Please remember - you are not to blame! I'm here for you if you need to talk, just PM. Stay safe,

xx

Netsirkylime · 15-07-2008, 01:08 AM

I can't talk to them, I've never been able to. I can't take the apathy in their voices about anything that concerns me. Or that "mmmhmmm emily yeah" shrug off. I can't take it... I can't talk to them, and that hurts the most..

Sometimes Crazy · 15-07-2008, 01:22 AM

That sounds very frustrating and very hurtful too - I don't blame you for feeling hurt by these responses. Would writing a letter to them help or even talking to another family member? Could family counselling even be an option?

Netsirkylime · 15-07-2008, 01:43 AM

no... i can't do anything about anything... i feel so helpless...

he made my mom cry... i've only seen her cry once before, and that was when her dad died... but he made her cry

Kuwairo · 15-07-2008, 01:20 PM

Parents fighting all the time can be so horrible to live with can't it?
Hun if they split up and it's for the best, I know you can get through it. It won't be easy but you'll do it.
I can understand about it being hard to talk to them (my mum gets a similar apathy sometimes, it's so fustrating) especially if they're fighting, but enigma's right, it might be good to talk to them individually, if you can.
There is always another option hun than suicide, and that's fighting and you can.
*hugs*

88shelz · 15-07-2008, 01:47 PM

i really understand where you are comming from,
beng stuck between two bitter parents is the worse thing ever. it has so many ill effects on their kids and they dont seem to comprehend that it hurts like hell.

i really do suggest you speak to your parents together about how their relationship effects you. or if you cannot do that...speak to either one parent that you can talk to.

i ever spoke to either of my parents how bout how their arguments made me feel....wish i had of now. turns out they stayed together for me and my brother. we all would have been happier with them apart though.

if you feel you cant handle it then perhaps you could speak to a relative or friend and stay with them for a while to get some space to yourself?

please dont stay silent though. its not worth the pain!!

Netsirkylime · 18-07-2008, 01:06 AM

A friend of mine invited me over, a lot of the reason was because I told her about how I was feeling, so I got out of the house for a few days and now i feel okay. I'm still a little upset about my parents, but it seems the sorta worked something out, seeing as they are both still here and I'm pretty sure they are both still talking...