Its not pathetic!! Whats made you feel so bad??
*hugs* Dont do anything drastic, why do you want to be in hospital so much?? I care for you, and I know other people do too!!
PM me if you want to talk. Please look after yourself!!
Thinking of you!! xxx
"People have abused you lots in the past? Why do you then abuse yourself more?" - Quote
Sometimes I feel like I'm alone, Sometimes I feel like I'm not that strong, Sometimes I feel nothing at all, Sometimes I feel vulnerable, Sometimes I feel a little fragile
*Because Im safe there
*Theres no arguments
*No fear
*No mirrors
*No weighing scales
*Nothing to hurt myself with
*Staff who care
*people to talk to
*away from the evil
*away from him
*away from food
*I NEED TO BE CARED FOR.
I just cant cope with all these feelings inside me and the hugeness of my disgusting body and everything else and the cuts on ly legs are horrible, and Im not happy.
I love you so much sam,
You still have a chance to go back to cotswold, talk to amy & mel on friday. Maybe they wont put you back in cotswold but a pysch ward?
Please please, don't do anything drastic, fight until friday at least.
twiny <3
You can sammi!
You can, I believe in you!
write it down if its easier?
'I need someone to care for me, i really feel cotswold helped me & I know it would help me again'
something like that?
I love you
x
Sammi the things you say ARENT pathetic.They are more than understandable when you are feeling so bad.And its always good to post these things if it helps you - go for it because it gets it out at least!If it works for you at least a little then please dont feel bad.We are here to listen.And i know i dont know you hardly at all but i care and read your posts and i see many others who do too.You are worth so much to us and i wish you could see your own worth too like we do.i hate to see you like this.Struggling so much.
i know you are struggling and that each day seems another battle and i dont know exactly whats going on with your support right now but as Helen says please focus on just trying to get through to Friday so you can talk to Amy and Mel if you are seeing them then and maybe write something, anything for them if it helps.
They are obviously concerned or they would not be seeing you.
i can understand your feelings about wanting/needing to be cared for especially when your feeling so bad but i really really hope you dont hurt yourself and i know its easier said than done but i really hope and encourage you to seek help before you do anything like that if you do find yourself in a situation of very immediate danger.Please just speak to someone,anyone then.
i know ive not been much help here really so its pretty useless but wanted to let you know im still here and reading.Please keep posting Sammi.i worry for you.
i do not always manage to be around but i wish you all the very best - love and luck to you all!
Just hold on for a few more days sammi, you can get through this.
Soon you can talk it all out with amy & mel & they can put you somewhere safe <3
If you feel really unsafe, you could see your doctor? or A&E?
I love more than life <3
xxxxx
Oh sweetheart, please try try try, we all care for you. I read a lot of your threads and I do care about what happens to you!!!
I can understand your feeling to be cared for. If we can help tell us!
Is there nothing you could do to help distract yourself, make yourself feel cared for?
I care ok hun, and I've never spoken to you before!!
xox
*hugs* i feel the same..wish i could make things better for you!
but i do know what would be annoying him would be to hurty yourself! that means more paperwork he has to do..talking would not annoy him! i promise! helping you would not annoy him! why would he do this job if it annoyed him talking to people?- try and think about it please!
