whats going on,?

[whathellisabout]

how do i word this without bringing across the wrong message,

recently i moved into a house my mother bought before xmas last year. the lady beside us we have only recently started to get to know the last 3 months or so.

ill refer to her as 'amy' cos i wont give names out. she has 1 daughter and 1 son.

ill call the daughter 'river' and 'brandon' for now. brandon is 4 and river is 8.

now, i know im straight and not homosexual, but iv been feeling like iv never met anyone, like brandon, before in my life.
i have urges to see this child, day and night, and think of him roughly....17 hours a day.
i moved out of my mothers recently to the city and i have my own place now. normally i dont go back and visit my mother nearly every 2nd day like i am now but i just have to hang out and see this kid. hes so ridiculousy....smart.....and way too non-childish. its extremely abnormal in my books.

im not sexually attracted to him if thats what your thinking, but i am finding like i want him to seriously like me. i want to just be around him day and night and live with him. im fantastic freinds with his mother also and we get on great and the 2 kids know who i am. my mother looks after brandon from 8am till around 1pm everyday because we all get on so well.

nobody knows that i feel this way, but brandon (not river) is extremely mature and...god i dont know how to put it. iv just never felt this way about a kid before.

i dont know what the hell is going on! and i dont think im perverted because i have no sexual urges, i just wanna be around him.

can anyone help???

[LittleBabyNothing]

Sounds to me like you've made a connection with this child and now your starting to get broody, it's perfectly natural.

what Jools (?) said.
maybe he's just everything you hope your children will be when you have them.

Take care.

Charlie.
xx

[whathellisabout]

your both right! kinda.....this is fantastic, because i first thought about if i were to have a child i dont ever want him to be any different to this little fella.

i spent time together in our local shopping centre thismorning with his mother, my mother and sister for a few hours and he wouldnt stop following me around, hes definitly clinging to me and is starting to really grow attached to me!

thanks for all the help! oh by the way...what does 'broody' mean?

[whathellisabout]

one funny thing was when i was holding him in my arms in the centre he was looking at me as if i had told him santa is around the corner and i was like 'what are you glaring at mister' and he was like 'what? nothing...:P'

sorry i just got my dam account working again now

broody is when you get all like 'awh.... babies.. i want one!'

[whathellisabout]

i thought it was street slang or something, just looked it up on dictionary.com and i was like yep thats me haha! cool!

[whathellisabout]

hey sorry i need to plug this thred again,

i would apreciate it if i could keep on talking about it, it really helps me vent,

is there anything else i should do?