Triggering (SI/Suicide) - JUST RELAPSED HELP

[xanthismom]

I just relapsed by cutting myself my boyfriend rang me to say nite nite as he is going to the movies with his best mate i was not expecting his call.I told him i love him and he said it back But now i am paranoied that he is cheating on me so when i hung up i cut a little now i cant stop crying and i want to be dead.
but he sounded different i dont know if my mind just going crazy cos ive been streesed alll week.
I just want nto die and make life better for everyone i feel like i cant go on.Also it is my eldest daughters birthday today i not seen her in 5yrs or had a photo.I need help.

[Sometimes Crazy]

I hear that you're feeling paranoid and insecure right now and I'm so sorry that you've been affected this way. I can relate to how you feel. Have you ever considered getting help for these feelings, maybe counselling? If you feel it's a self esteem problem, perhaps even looking at self-help books/courses would benefit you. What do you think would be best to help you start to recover from this?

xx

[[pretty on the inside]]

When you're feeling stressed and low, it's easy to think people wouldbe better off without you, but your boyfriend, friends and family all love you, and your death would have an incredible impact on them. Suicide is never a solution to your problems, and people would never be "better off" without you because if you die right now they'll all feel emptier for the rest of their lives.

You're probably feeling worse because you're stressed, and the odd slip up is okay. Start again from tomorrow and try not to worry about having cut today. Is there anything that would reassure you about your bf's lyalty?

xx

[-Rainbow-]

i am so sorry to hear of your distress. it must hurt so mcuh to be in your position
i do think that a long talk with your bf would be a big help to you as it could
set your mind at ease?
and remeber that we are all hear for you
how do you thnk that dying would make others lives better? it wouldnt make our lives better.
we care <3
it must be hard not seeing your daughter, do you think that the fact u have not seen her
added to your trigger to cut?
its okay that you did though because its a slip up so dont stress on it
:)
xx