Triggering (Suicide/Sexual Abuse) - *triggering for everything* Suicidal, not sure I can cope anymore?
I can't cope anymore. I need help. I want to end it its so hard to to all of this. My eating disorder (which I am finally excepting that I have) is killing me. I can't walk down the street without looking at women and thinking
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oh, shes so much skinnier than me, I will have to lose a stone before I look like her. I am underweight, but I still feel fat.
Then, things with my ex boyfriend are really making it hard for me to do anything
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keep thinking about them touching, doing bad things to me, can't even hear a song, totally freaked out today. Why did you do that? I said no, I begged you to stop!
I can't stop cutting. I don't care who sees anymore...
Its all on top of me, I can't cope anymore, I want it to be over... want it all to stop.
Last edited by dancing loony : 10-07-2008 at 10:29 PM.
I am Angela
razorxkissedxwrists is my twin~ scared of me is my mummy~ binkydonkey is my daughter~ dreamcatchme-- is my big sister~
Kona is my guard dog~ dark angel666 is my cuddly teddy bear~ *fading existence* is my auntie~ Miste is my fishie~
troubleshooter is my big sister~
I am so sorry things are hard for you right now.
I can understand a lot of the ex boyfriend things. Do you speak to a therapist or anything? and do they know about how you are feeling?
Please be careful,
lots of hugs
x
Wow! I feel so much the same as you do!! I know exactly how difficult that is!
Horrid isn't it?
But, keep trying to override those thoughts and now that you feel like you want help, get it.. It may be difficult, but keep up with the determination and you'll get there :)
If you need me, PM me
xxKirstenxx
Allie, I'll never forget you..
Love You Always.
You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the things which you think you cannot do.
"People have abused you lots in the past? Why do you then abuse yourself more?" - Quote
Sometimes I feel like I'm alone, Sometimes I feel like I'm not that strong, Sometimes I feel nothing at all, Sometimes I feel vulnerable, Sometimes I feel a little fragile
Im so sorry for everything you are going through. Do you have a therapist or any support? I know how hard it is to talk to family members - do you have a friend you are close to, even if you dont go out so much, that you could confide in? Having support around you can really help.
When things are hard it is difficult to go out and have fun. However you do have a life, and things can get better. It is hard to see now, but there are options of how to get the best support so you can start to enjoy things again.
take care hun
xx
"If only everyone could know and live with their inner craziness…people would be fairer and happier." Paulo Coelho
My ex boyfriend has been granted the right to an appeal. I can't cope anymore. I never want to see him again but I know what will happen if he gets out. I'm a dead girl walking. I never thought that there was that much evidence going in my favour, if he gets out what little safety I have is gone...
I am Angela
razorxkissedxwrists is my twin~ scared of me is my mummy~ binkydonkey is my daughter~ dreamcatchme-- is my big sister~
Kona is my guard dog~ dark angel666 is my cuddly teddy bear~ *fading existence* is my auntie~ Miste is my fishie~
troubleshooter is my big sister~
