Triggering (SI/Suicide) - what the hell

cutter4life · 10-07-2008, 03:43 AM

What the hell is my mothers problem!!!!!!!!!!!!! so last night i wasnt feeling good and my mom asked me to make her bed. I told her really nicely that i dont feel good, and i didnt feel like making her bed. so she was fine and then i go to my room to go to sleep. she comes in their and starts breaking all my F*@!ing art work! then the B*&@# starts throwing my clothes around my room. Then what do u know my dad finally came in, too get her away from me. i started cussing up a storm and screaming at her to get out. my dad couldnt get her to leave me alone!!!!!!! so i got a blade out and pressed it against my wrist vain and told her to get the F*&#@ out or i was going to do it. she finally got out, but boy did she want to call the cops on me. yeah go ahead and call them. they would be doing me a favor. any way i took 5 sleeping pills and layed down. i was flipping out. my whole body was shaking and i didnt want to deal with any body any more!!!!!!! i just dont think its worth it. any way she comes back in latter, screaming at me to clean up the mess she made. i said it was her mess. idc!!!!!!!! they r trying to sell their house, so idc if they make a mess! im not cleaning it. any way so she startes picking up my clothes to throw them away, and my dad comes back in trying to get her away from me. i just give her this evil look. she finally leaves!! i just lost it. i would have cut up a storm, but i have to showe my scars to a phycologist saturday and thats not enoghe time to heal. so i took more sleeping pills to relax. gosh im tired of this s^%$!!!!! i want it to be over so bad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

stumpy davies · 10-07-2008, 10:42 AM

Sorry things are so bad for you hun *HUGS*

Namaste · 10-07-2008, 02:29 PM

Aw, I'm sorry. I can kinda of understand, because my mom does stuff like that too, only a little less extreme. It seems like things are very hard for you. I hope they get better, and you can PM me whenever you need to talk!

cutter4life · 10-07-2008, 04:04 PM

Things in my house just get worst!! my mom wont admit she is crazy and my dad doesnt want to deal with her. i move out on aug. 13!! i need to toughe it out. my life is always like this and it will never get better!! the psych. is the one for now and its over with him after saturday. i cant tell no one any thing.