Triggering (SI/Suicide) - sorry.

[Lost-Odd-Sock]

i know i keep posting,
i know im taking away important space
and yet i keep doing it knowing i dont deserve any support,
but god, i havent felt this bad in years,

i really am thinking of jutr ending it all

there's so many reasons why i shouldnt be here,
and noting is going to make thisgo awy or make it better, i
just dont know any more

im failn and falling and dying inside
and i cant im just so scared, i cant control myself anymore

i cant do it please help
i know i dont deserve but pelase?

i cant do this..

i cant im ending it FUCK OMG i cant i feel sick,
im SO FREAKING SCARED gotta cutmysef away

DELETE ME

im so so sorry

[bexie]

*cuddles*
honey, you do deserve help and support too.
you are having a rough time, and its far better to tlk to people about it than to take it out on urself.
we are all here to support you.
my pm box is open if u want to chat.
try and stay storng babe xxxx

[Lost-Odd-Sock]

thank, i really apricite th reply, i uust i cant i cant

i dont now ht im going to fo

[bexie]

try and calm down.
its hard, but i have faith i you.
you can get through this.
xxxx

[l'il esky]

hun you are not wasting space, you have as much right as any of us to keep posting.

sending lots of hugs, atm they aint much i can input, but here if you need me xx

[Lost-Odd-Sock]

Traec, they are none, realyl i feel so freaking bad!!
id ont know hwya t to do.

i havent ever fely his bad !!

i cant ..stop hinkning, i need to end myseldg.

[Lost-Odd-Sock]

i cant even fuking type

[Lost-Odd-Sock]

im too selfish to see.

too selfisj

all i thik about is myelf.

they dont care about e me ..

if they did thy woul help ,e

not eav me all alone

[Lost-Odd-Sock]

NO!!! no no no !! I NEVER meant you guys, you guys are totally, absolutly and awesomely freaking FANTASTIC!!! i never meant it to seem like that. Not ever. you guys are totally AMAZING! i meant people in real life im SO SORRY if it seemed like i ment you guys!!!


i've stopped crying and shaking. so thats a start.

feel like death thoguh.

cant go to the therapist, for apparently i have to save up all the money for the flat on my own, and i've been told im not allowed to spend the money. i dont need it, they're right..

[Lost-Odd-Sock]

i just am in a stage of feeling sorry for myself.
whining about all i wished i had, its a very selfish thing.

i have so much. i am sorry

[Sunshine]

wish i had the words to help...just know you are not taking up space! *hugs*

[Lost-Odd-Sock]

thanks darlin


xxx