on and off with antidepressants

[Ghostface]

I always forget to take my antidepressant pills. When I was on holliday I only took them once during a week. I dont know why, I just had a really good time, and just wanted to block out everything that made me think about depression, SI, OD and so on. Ive been home 5 days now....Havent taken the pills before today. Just forgot about it really. And ive been feeling really, really weird the last days. I dont know how to explain it. But im like totally indifference. Yesterday I woke up really early, I was really moody, but suddenly I started laughing and couldnt stop. It wasnt like a good laugh, cause I felt awful, but it was like someone forced me to laugh.
It's like im really, really down. But I cant feel anything...If that makes sense. Im not able to cry or get angry. I had a good reason to get angry because of something my siste did yesterday, but I just didnt react. Normally I would SI or something.

I mean, what's happening? I find this even more scary than being angry or sad. Could it be because im on/off with the medication a lot?

[joyous broken thing]

hi, first off,i'm not really an expert on this,so i'd seek a second opinion. perhaps a doctor or counselor?
but in my own case not taking the anti-depressants had similar effects on me (until stress was added and then i went v low) so i'd advise you to take them regularly as prescribed.
and although it may remind you of your problems,try to think of it as reminding you of your strength in trying to recover.
take care,
anne x

[nikki1922]

When I used to forget my doctor told me to put it somewere , were you go every single day. May that be in ur car ont he seat or in ur bathroom or even in the fridge by water. I know whats it like and its not good for your body when I stopped my medcation bulntly it wasn't good at all. !!!I hope everything works out. Keep us posted kk !!!!!!

Nicole <3