Im ready to end it all. I really am. My life doesnt seem worth living. I can't trust anyone, not even myself. Ive just ripped at my skin so deep. Im going to let it all bleed out and hopefully ill fade away. I have my pills and vodka. I hate my life, so so much. I WANT TO FUCKING DIE!!!!!!!! LET ME PLEASE!!!! Please take away all this hurt i have inside. I don't wanna wake up everyday to spend the whole day crying. I want to smile, see some good in my life.
I really do, but i can't. All i see is a bad past and i can't seem to block it out.
My voices are talking to me. She's saying "Die bitch just fucking die! No one loves you, your fat and ugly! Your whole family hate you!!"
She's right...im going..
thank you, Lily, for saving mummy's life*.
You are my one and only, you can wrap your fingers round my thumb and hold me tight, and you'll be alright.
You can fight this voice because she is wrong!
there are people that care about you and don't want you to hurt yourself
(me included!)
have you got anybody you can call who can come and sit with you maybe
at least think about throwing away those pills?
it might be hard to see it now but your a strong person and you can get through this and one day you will be happy and you'll look back on this and realise how strong you are
please don't give in, hold on *big hugs* I know you can do it!
"In the driest whitest stretch of pains infinate desert, I lost my sanity, and found this rose"
I have no one jess. No one i can truely believe in and talk to. The woman is sat near me, telling me what to do. Shes made me cut myself deep. She is hitting me. Im fed up.
thank you, Lily, for saving mummy's life*.
You are my one and only, you can wrap your fingers round my thumb and hold me tight, and you'll be alright.
You can always PM me if you need to talk
I'm online pretty much everyday and I'll try to reply to my messages as soon as I can.
Are you on meds for this woman?
have you tried talking to her and telling her to go away
When my voices start telling me to SI I just repeat over and over in my head a kind of mantra, like; "go away and leave me alone!"
I just repeat it over and over again to try and drown the voices away
or I listen to my MP3 player and turn up the volume high
Are you seeing your counciller yet?
"In the driest whitest stretch of pains infinate desert, I lost my sanity, and found this rose"
Please throw those pills away
your stronger than that, you know you are and so do I
I know your strong and you can get thru today, you can do it
Are sure there isn't anybody who can come and sit with you today?
I'm just worried about you and want you to be safe *hugs*
Those pills might seem appealing right now but if you take them you will just end up feeling rotten.
Just remember that I'm sure there have been days like this in the past and you have managed to get thru them like I know you can now
It sounds really silly but have you got anything to distract you from those pills? Please throw them away, your strong enough to do this!
"In the driest whitest stretch of pains infinate desert, I lost my sanity, and found this rose"
I know that I don't know you, but I've seen quite a few of your posts on threads. And I've noticed that you're always there for people and supporting them. You may not know it, but you've helped so many people. Even if you don't have anyone right there with you, you've got all of us. At the very least, you have me and Jess. Please don't take all of your love and support from all of us.
