Triggering (SI) - Please Help

xokelmxo · 06-07-2008, 08:05 AM

I feel like i'm losing everything my friends are telling me im strong but i feel so weak. I got into a horrible fight with my dad and it really got to me i just want to si so badly. I feel like i want to go deeper then ever before i'm scared of what i might do. I feel like i just want to si over and over until all thats left is blood please i need some form of encouragement something please help.

l'il esky · 06-07-2008, 10:56 AM

your friends are trying to be supportive, unfortunately they only see the bravado on the outside not the struggle that your going through on the inside!
try not to let the fight you had with your dad cause you to sh, trust me i know how triggering parents can be, but its not worth it- we all have arguements with parents thats half their job!!
try getting an ice cube and sitting with it in your hand or rubbing it over the area you want to sh.

*love and cuddles*

holly xxx

lunalovegood · 06-07-2008, 01:11 PM

I think your friends are trying to support you by telling you how strong you are, which is a good thing. I know it can feel like everyone's lying to you when saying that, but really it just means that they believe in you and think you can get through this.
I know it's tempting to cut in a situation like this, but maybe you can go somewhere where you are more safe?
can you go and do some sports or punch a pillow to get the anger out in another way than cutting yourself?
take care.

one_step_closer · 06-07-2008, 01:11 PM

I'm sorry that you are feeling so bad right now, please give yourself some time to let this feeling pass. Of course, while you are feeling so worked up SI might seem like a reasonable response but it won't help in the long run. When you are feeling more calm you will not want this. Try to find another way to cope right now, maybe you could go for a run or be with someone who makes you feel good. Whatever you do stay safe. Please take care and get in touch any time.

-Shae-Lynn* · 07-07-2008, 02:15 AM

How are you doing now sweetie?
are you able to talk to your friends about this? Even about the weather or just some way of distracting yourself?? You can fight this!! A lot of times people can see what we cannot see in ourselves. You CAN fight and you'll do amazing!! You aren't loseing everything. You will always have the people on RYL who love and care about you. You will always be able to look at your accomplishments.
You can do this.
<3