Triggering (SI/OD) - please is there anybody who can help me (urgent)
Im so sorry, but i dont know where else to turn. i have had 5 hours of therapy today to try and convince me not to give up. But now they are talking about moving me out of the house i am in and taking me somewhere quite far away from where i am. I KNOW THAT I SOUND PETTY AND PATHETIC but i dunno how to cope with life anymore. i seem to be spending my life crying and taking to many pills and ending up in hospitals, and i just feel pathetic. I have tried to ask for help from God but i am just too weak and fightened. i am also dealing with ptsd atm and the abuse that started when i was seven will not go away. i have been confronted in the last few days by the abuser again and i cant cope. i have also started to take drugs to supress all the pain, but my arms are now buggered along with my head and i have no more money. i know i am a load of shit but i just dunno what to do anymore and i have knowone to turn to, and suicide is the only thing on my mind.
i also wondered if anyone knows the symptoms of liver failure as i have taken too much and am a little yellow?
I'm sorry, I don't have anything helpful to say, I just want you to know that you're not wasting anybody's time.
I suggest you go to a doctor as soon as if you feel that you have done something to harm your liver.
Please stay safe.
*Cuddles*
xxx
You can't lose hope when it's hopeless.
You gotta hope more,
then put your fingers in your ears and go,
"Blah blah blah blah!"
Jen love, Im here for you. Im going to try and ring you today but can you do me a favour and please get yourself to a doctor? If you need a lift, I will come and get you and take you either to the doctor or the hospital. Sweetheart, you do not want liver failure! It is painful and horrible. If you are starting to look yellow, you need to act asap.
Does any one know your abuser confronted you in the last few days? You really should tell someone about it. That is absolutely disgusting and well, you know what I think of him. Jen the one thing you can do to really screw his life over which is what he deserves, is my living yours as much and as happily and as fully as you can. That is the best way to stick a finger in his face. Dont let him take away from you my darling what a wonderful, wonderful life you can and will lead. Because I know you will because you have so, so much to give- you're caring and creative- one of the best artists I know, you're kind, you dont judge.... I couldnt write all the amazing things cos there are too many to name! And he may have mucked up a lot from you, but no one and I mean no one can take away those amazing traits. And it is a testimony to just how great you are that despite everything you've been through, you're still caring and loving and want to help others. You dont sound petty, you dont sound pathetic and you are wasting no ones time. You are reaching out for help and support which is so important.
I'll talk about the house issue and the money issue with you when I see you or ring you ( hopefully later today!)
Sweetie you mean so so so much to me. I just couldnt bear it if anything happened to you. You have helped me so much, I dont know what I'd do if you weren't there for me. And you have been so strong and so brave, fighting back to where you are now from where you have been, given everything that you have been through. When you were round mine the other week and talking to me when I was just out of hospital, I was so full of pride at how much better you sounded and looked and everything and how healthy and lovely you looked, you were just such an inspiration. And I was so happy for you. You are a strong person, and you can and you will get better.
I love you loads and Im sending you heaps of hugs xxxxx
I'm so sorry things are like this for you. I'm not sure I can say much more than what Rebecca said but you know where I am ok. I love you so damn much and couldn't bear to lose you. Please get yourself to the doctor hun. We really really need to meet up soon - I need to give you a hug! I'll phone you later ok.
Take care my lovely xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Sometimes the way in life seems cloudy...But remember, after the storm comes clear skies
Thankyou peeps, i think im jst having a bad week or sumfing.But it is pretty tough shit and sometimes you just cant hold urself up anymore. Im gonig out 2night 2 talk to one of my best buddys so i am sure i will get some good advice.
I hope you had a good time last night and feel a bit better today. I tried to phone you because I didn't realise you were out. Sending you lots of love and hugs xxx
Sometimes the way in life seems cloudy...But remember, after the storm comes clear skies
tahnkyou laura, and im in all day today, Wel i think i am. i hope your ok and I am feeling much better. take it easy!! And im really proud of you for being so strong
