Triggering (SI/OD) - I have no choice! *also triggering suicide*
I need to overdose.
There is no option.
I just can't cope anymore.
Yesterday night, you may have seen my 'I'm alone in the house....' post, and I'm a complete faliure. Everyone said I could get through the night without hurting myself, but no. I cut myself... not badly, but still enough to bleed.
Now I'm in really bad place, worse than EVER. I bought some painkillers today - can't name them, obviously - with the intent of overdosing. However, I fell asleep before I could take them and I left the empty packet on the bed next to me (I'd taken the capsules out) and my mum found me, and assumed the worst. She tried to get me to go to hospital, even though I kept telling her I was fine she didn't believe me.
I hadn't taken ANY of the capsules. I am going to later though, I just can't deal with this life anymore.
Sorry.
You've all tried your best to help me, it didn't work.
I'm so, so sorry.
xxx
Last edited by PrincessVegeta_x : 03-07-2008 at 07:34 PM.
Reason: spelling. also triggers different things now i edited it xx
"How can I be a gynecologist? I can barely look a woman in the eye!"
♥
I agree with h122. You are worth soooo much more than this!!
I too know exactly how you're feeling, and have been there. It's not a nice place to be, at all!! But if you were to go through with it, thats a worse place to be!!
Please phone someone, or talk to someone. Feel free to PM me if you want!! Please take care of yourself, thinking of you!! xxx
"People have abused you lots in the past? Why do you then abuse yourself more?" - Quote
Sometimes I feel like I'm alone, Sometimes I feel like I'm not that strong, Sometimes I feel nothing at all, Sometimes I feel vulnerable, Sometimes I feel a little fragile
*hugs* Please keep holding on sweetie. Although it doesn't feel like it now over time life does improve so keep fighting. As the others have said, phone someone and talk to them and keep posting here if it helps.
Thinking of you, take care of yourself.
xxx
Listen you dont have to do this I had takden tablets the other night and people on here told me to get to A & E which I did and glad I did now or would of lended up regretting it
Hey hun!
How are you feeling??
Did you find someone to talk to?? xxx
"People have abused you lots in the past? Why do you then abuse yourself more?" - Quote
Sometimes I feel like I'm alone, Sometimes I feel like I'm not that strong, Sometimes I feel nothing at all, Sometimes I feel vulnerable, Sometimes I feel a little fragile
I am ok actually.
My mum was sooo pissed off at me, not for taking the tablets but for not telling her soon enough (because it could have been fatal). I felt really bad this morning, had a headache, but that's about it.
Thanks for worrying about me, you two. xxx
"How can I be a gynecologist? I can barely look a woman in the eye!"
♥
xxx
