drinking

[Merc]

the drinking is getting worse again i guess...not so much that im drinking tons..but im drinking quite a bit every single night. And now it takes so much more to get even a buzz....
I was set and ready to go into detox not too long ago; made all the calls, got on list...and then it dragged on and on and i lost the drive for it.
I turned to thinking, 'its not so bad', i can control this...
i just cant see myself not EVER drinking again...i know, i know...one day and all that..but ...al isee is the end result is the same...never ever again...maybe if i get help so i dont need to drink and hide things/shut off it will help..
sorry just a pointless moan i suppose...
romp

[delikatskin]

In same situation here. Don't know if this will help or not, just a suggestion anyway. I just marked on my new bottle the date I bought it. I held out for one day. Each time I drink, I mark it. So I can judge how much I'm drinking and how long till the bottle is gone. It's like a competition with myself ot make the bottle last as long as possible.

D.

[qwerty_joshy]

Hey romp, good to see you on v3.

It may be hard, and take ages, but the detox thing will help you get through this, or it's just gonna get worse. It's just liek SI, it's addictive and hard to stop, but eventually you're going to destroy yourself. Keep tryign to get into that program, and in the mean time, just keep thinking of all that you'll miss and all the people you'll hurt when you've toally destroyed your liver.

Joshy
xxx

[youmakemefeellikeawhore]

getting sober is a bitch, but being sober rules.

i think what you need to really look at is not just your life without alcohol; try and think of all the other problems booze is causing you. the money you spend, the relationships that have suffered, your school/work stuff, your appearanc, your health, youre confidence. and, instead of seeing just a lack of alcohol, try imagining yourself having a social circle that you loved and trusted, who you had genuine fun with, and being able to wake up every day feeling healthy and fantastic.

sobriety is possible, and you can one day do all the things you think you cant do. the biggest thing is getting as much help as you can; the bigger the network, the easier the battle. (though it's never really easy easy.)
please consider getting involved with AA or any other drug-free/sober-living group. take care of yourself and i wish you much luck!