Triggering (SI/ED) - please i need some support. im kinda losing my mind
Erm, my night ws really hard, My head just really let rip on me
for no reason. Just this big tsunami of abuse thrashed against me all night long. and i've not slept. and im so fricking lonely.
and i cut myself..
i am so desperate, will
it be a fact of my life that forever more
i am to hate myself, and all that i do?
forever to be a stupid ****.
cutting cant be the only way to solve this
but i dont deserve more
just cut and starve. waste me.
i am nothing.
over and over and over
because i desrve nothing more
I AM A COMPLETE WASTE OF SPACE.
A COMPLETE ****
A WASTER
A ****
SELFISH MOTHER****ER.
i cant be.
can i? .. TO LATE! i am what i am..****ing waste of space
god i hate this. i cant stand this anymore
You arent a waste of space hun and your arent nothing. You are clearly struggling right now but that doesnt make you any of the negative things you mentioned. Reaching out and posting shows that you want help and that you are strong.
do you have any support for your eating problems and SI? Please be careful,,is there anything else that makes you feel better? there are other ways of dealing with things, writing, drawing, poetry, reading, watching a film, fun and distraction board - keeping yourself busy can helpa lot.
Being so tired from not sleeping probably isnt helping your mood, I always find I feel worse if I havent slept. Try and have a sleep at some point today, or have a relaxing day if you can and be kind to yourself.
Take care hun xxx
"If only everyone could know and live with their inner craziness…people would be fairer and happier." Paulo Coelho
Whoa!! Darling, you are never any of those things, nuh-uh.. Not at all..
You're amazing, beautiful both inside and out and you have helped so many people, despie your own suffering and struggling.. You have been so strong.. You slipped up, it's all part of recovery.. It's ok..
You are amazing, love and so many people love you and care about you so much! You are no way a waste of space, you are extremely worthy of our time, because you're struggling and we're here to help..
Talk to me if you need to, love, I am here for you
love you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Allie, I'll never forget you..
Love You Always.
You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the things which you think you cannot do.
Allie sweetheart, u are NONE of those things - honestly. U are so kind and u always manage to brighten my day even if ure not feeling great ureself - therefore its impossible for u to be selfish.
I hope u start feeling better soon - u no where i am xx
