Triggering (SI/OD) - sertraline/doctors/being in a mess. please help?

[lost and unknown]

hi guys, has anyone got any experince of this? ive just come off citalopram, and my docs put me on this. i not been on it before and not heard of it before. im gonna be on 50mg a day, which is kinda the starting dose. just wondering if this worked for anone? any side effects?

im really scared cus my doc told me that i would ge better before i get worse and ive been really suicidal recently. and i told him that the cutting is getting worse - that im doing it more often and deeper. but he didnt seem to care. he never replied i think he was listning but he never aknowledged half the things i was saying. i told him i am angry a lot more than i used to be. and he said who are you angry at? thats about the only thing he said that was even remotely anything like caring about how i was. i find it really hard to go to him and ive been scared about this appointment for days and i have been a mess all day. and he says im going to get worse! im really scared. i went to see a counsellor on tuesday who kind of helped. i told her i often think about oding and then maybe they might put me into hospital and look after me and i can get better and she said why dont you just go into hospital and cut out the oding bit? so i asked my doctor and he said it would take months to sort out and basically if i wanted to go into hospital then oding was the best way - but in not so many words. i feel really really angry and very very scared. i thought doctors were supposed to help you?

sorry its kind of a long post. but im really in a bad space and dont know what to do or who to go to.

[sparkle.]

hey,

I was put on 50mg of Sertraline um...I don't even remember when sorry - a few months ago. And it really helped me almost straight away, I was very suicidal at the time and I found, for me, the thoughts disappeared rather quickly.
I'm now on 100mg as I'm still not sleeping (very well), but I have no complaints about Sertraline, it's the best anti-depressant I've been on...and there's been a handful. It is different for everybody though.

I'm not sure what else to say, but wanted to comment about the Sertraline, feel free to PM me about it if you like xxx I hope it works

[lost and unknown]

thank you both. very much. closely monitered? i dont know. i see my doctor once a month. thats it. i made the disicion myself to see a counsillor at university cus im not coping with my thoughts very well. i dont suppose that counts as closely monitoring as far as the doctors is concerned. im sure he wouldnt care if i oded and died though. just one patient less he has to see surely?

[lost and unknown]

ok. ill try. thanx xx