Triggering (Suicide) - Low Moods and Depression...

[Breadsticks]

I don't think this triggers, but just incase.

So, I had an appointment with my psychiatrist today. And we talked about my holiday last week. And I have to say, I REALLY enjoyed it, I can't rememember ever being so happy. But at the same time, I still wanted to kill myself, it doesn't seem to matter how happy I am. (I omitted this part this morning, I just forgot to mention it.) And my mood totally deteroriated since I've came home.

My point is, the psych says she doesn't think i'm "clinically" depressed, or even depressed at all, because I enjoyed my holiday. Which means i'm suffering from "Low Moods". That's hardly a condition, and makes me feel silly.

Sorry, back to my POINT. Is this right? I mean, surely, if i'm suicidal, it's more than low moods? I'm scared of condradicting her though. Should I say something next time?

Sorry for the pointless post, it's just bothered me that she decided I wasn't depressed. Even though she said I could die from my last overdose, and I said I didn't care.

Just... advice? Or something?

Thanks, Natasha x

[tamobhuuta]

i don't know exactly what doctors count as depression but i agree with you that suicidality suggests something more difficult than 'low moods'. if you don't fit a diagnosis of depression, it suggests your problem is something else, maybe one she hasn't got a label for, which doesn' make it any less of a problem, just because you don't 'fit'. you could ask her to explain more her reasons for describing it as low mood andwhat she thinks could be helpful. from that you could maybe understand more whether she sees you in the same way you see yourself and go from there.

[Breadsticks]

Yeah, that sounds about right. Hmm. I have a Psychiartrist and Nurse Therapist who I see roughly every 2-3 weeks. (I see them both at once, like a double act ). I'll see if I can bring it up next time I have an appointment, I don't actually know when my next one is. Urgh, I hate this, just trying to survive till my next appointment :(.

Thanks though .

[l'il esky]

yeh def think you should mention it to the gp so he/she has all the facts to make her diagnosis.

to get an indication of whether you are depressed you can google "burns depression checklist"
at the end of the day you sound like your getting some good support and that is kind of all the matters, dont feell like you have to have a label for yourself

sending huggles xx