Triggering (Suicide) - help

[guttergirl]

i dont know what to say
it hurts
i am sick of being so misrable all the time
it hurts so bad
i dont think am gonna make it
i cant do it anymore.
help

[Stellata]

You can make it, even though it feels unbearable right now, the wave will pass and things will feel calmer again.

For now.. talk to us, let us know what it is that is troubling you. Where does it hurt?

[Louise]

What's troubling you what making you feel you can't go on?

[guttergirl]

it hurts inside out
i am bipoler with no support whatsoever anbd thats difficult to live with
i am being crushed by so much guilt
it never gets better,it just keeps hurting and i cant make it better
i feel totaly pethetic and i just dont want to keep going anymore
it doesnt get better,i dont want to suffer anymore
i cant take it anymore
i am breaking

[Stellata]

You're not pathetic. Distress and struggling, rather.

How come no support? What options do you have for getting support?

You can't make it better alone, you need support, the right meds, understanding and to learn coping strategies.

It probably feels like your heart is breaking, but you are not breaking. Basically, deep down, beneath the illness, you are ok.

((holds you safe))

[guttergirl]

thanks everyone
i get no support because my mother hates me for not being able to cope
doctors have given me no help up till this point because they keep telling me they cant help me without my mother knowing.
that cant happen.
i cant control my SI and i am throwing up again.
i hate myself for not being able to just keep it together.
so scared

[emily.ily9]

maybe it's time to tell your mother what's going on and get some much needed help. do you have any medication for your bipolar?
stay safe and take care
xemily

[guttergirl]

have to sleep
thanks everyone

[Stellata]

Maybe take your mum along to a dr's appointment. It might help for the dr to explain how much you need support.

[guttergirl]

hi again everyone.
i am making a doctors appontment not with my motehr though
with my boyfriend.
i made it through the night and today isnt looknig so awful
thank you everyone
xxx

[The Midnight Crazies]

That might be a good idea, going to the dr's together with your bf. :)

Marte

[Stellata]

Good for you!