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[-Stewie-]

i havent felt so crap in ages

my mum had a huge rant at me and told me maybe it would be a good idea if i moved out for a while. she then said that she, my dad and my sister were all gutted about the fact i am gay. which is the first ive heard of it in the whole time since they've known.

as far as the boyfriend goes, i am in a really weird place at the moment (in my own head, not with the relationship) and he knows im pretty down- and all i want is for him to tell me that i mean something to him but he doesnt. and no i cant talk to him about that, because if you tell someone you need them to tell you something then they'll say it whether they mean it or not. he says he loves me but what does that mean exactly? everyone means something different when they use that word.

and i am scared of losing him through moaning so much. people dont tend to want to be around you when you're miserable and im starting to have that effect i think. but i have no control over it. you dont choose to be miserable.

i just need a hug and for someone to say its going to be okay, and ill be here for you until it is.

obviously too much to ask...

[crazykat]

Ok first of all its not to much to ask for a hug and someone to be there for you. Everyone needs to feel wanted/love accepted and by the sounds of it you are feeling far from that at the moment. I am sorry that your mum treated you like that, it must have been very hurtful. Have you got somewhere you can go for a little while till things have calmed down a bit, then maybe you could talk to her about how you feel if you wanted. I am sorry I have no ideas on how you could approach the situation with your boyfriend but hopefully one of the other lovely vets will be able to help. Keep hanging in there, things will get better. Feel free to PM me anytime if you ever need to chat or just want someone there. Take care
Kat xxx

[blondiebear]

I can't tell you that everything will be okay. I just don't have that magic want. I wish I could.

I do understand about family. My mother told my therapist that I shouldn't marry, I didn't love the guy enough. This guy is the one that I've been married to for 18 years.
I haven't talked to my parents since before Christmas, and my life is better for it.

I can say that I will listen to you. Even if I don't have any wise advice, i'll read your posts and try to let you know i've read them so you don't feel so alone.

*hugs you*

[irkeninvader]

Sorry you're feeling so down. It was unfair of your family to say that because you are gay. If you are worried about moaning to your boyfriend, maybe you could try to go out and do something special together to distract you for a while? Then you get to spend some quality time together and you can show him you appreciate him listening to you when you're down. *hugs*

[airwolf282]

Invidia,

It's sad that family can be so narrow minded. It sounds like they can't accept you for the person you are so you would be better off being far away from them. It is really their loss not yours.

My own family didn't accept my wife for years. Mainly because she is older than me and they are so old fashioned and narrow minded that they see this as wrong. Then again they never accepted anyone I ever dated. There would always be something "wrong", like different upbringing, different age, race etc.

Moving away from my family was the best thing I ever did, even though it put me into serious debt. Now I live 4 hours away from them. If I had to live in the gutter it would be better than living with people with such redneck intolerant attitudes. When things started getting bad with my health it was only my wife that stood by me. Absolutely no one else.

If I were you I would be out of there at the speed of light. My thoughts are with you.


Nathan

[SallyMay]

I give you a thousand hugs. I wish you the best! i am sorry to hear about your family. remember you dont pick your family but you do pick your friends

also if he loves you then he should be there for you threw this!

your right everyone does have diffrent meaning of love. you should talk to him about that one!

I give you a thousand more hugs

thousand plus a thousans equals two thousands (thats alot of hugs :))

[Merc]

and i am scared of losing him through moaning so much. people dont tend to want to be around you when you're miserable and im starting to have that effect i think. but i have no control over it. you dont choose to be miserable


^^^^ i could have written that. im sory youre so bad and that sudently your family has voiced such horrible things. plas try ot to listen to thme..yea rihgt i know...*hugs*
im so sorry ihave nothing uselfull , juat that i care ansd ill listyemn
pls be safe
romp