Triggering (SI) - My hardest class is an all day one!

[Casper_Fading]

So I'm studying to be a community development worker (will specialise in youth work/counselling in my six months next year) and apart of that study is learning the orgnisation and legal stuff to go with being a worker. And I swear if anyone ever sees being a worker is basic and simple i'll smack 'em from here to next millenium! So tomorrow I have Org5 which is a mixture of law and economics. I CAN'T DO IT! It's one of the classes I dropped out of last year (hence why i'm trying to complete it THIS year). I use to leave this class in the middle and go and slice my wrists. Three times I had to make up an excuse to leave and drive to the bloody hospital to get stitches. Was shitty to the max. Anyways this is my second chance at this class. Second and LAST chance. I'm really scared about this. I don't know if I can do this :'( It's a hard class. A really hard class and i'm starting to get all anxious. If something is going to f*ck up my cut freeness... this will be it. I don't know what to do... logically I should talk to my teacher... but I can't do that yet! I'm STRUGGLING! :'(

Jess

[akita]

If you feel like leaving in the middle of it and going off to cut yourself, you could sms or ring anybody that is your most supportive person and talk to them to take your mind off it. You can do this, you're jessica, you can get through anything.

[Trucktastic]

Rather than thinking it's all day, what about dividing the time up into sections? So that you're not looking at the clock and seeing another 3 hours to go.
Maybe do it in 15 minute sections. E.g. okay, I'm taking notes, I'll check the clock, it's 2pm, so that means i have to last 15minutes.
Then, once that 15 minutes is up, use another sheet of paper to signify to you that you think you're in a different class, it's not the same one lasting too long. You may have lots of pages with only a few notes on them, but you should be able to get through it.

Sounds like you will anyway - if you can drive with cut wrists then you are definitely strong enough to do this. After all, it's only a class.
You can always do a little study later.
Also, when i was at uni and doing a really boring class on english lit (i hated that, i had to do it if i wanted to do history and archaeology) i ended up writing stories in the margin of my paper. and then when i noticed no-one noticed, i then just wrote stories (my own) on the paper. Quite funny really, when it came to the exams everyone came to me for my notes!
Anyway, point is, when you're feeling desperate, try thinking about something else for a little while. And if you do have to leave the class, see if you can just go and get a drink of water or something, rather than cutting. Like you said, you don't want this to f**k up being cut free. It's only a class, it's not worth it.

Good luck!

Lozx