Triggering (Suicide) - the only way they will know how i feel

[stophurtingme]

maybe if i end my life they would finally realize how i feel. they would finally see all the harm they caused and they would be guilty. i feel like nobody knows how i feel. i try to tell them how much they hurt me and they use an excuse and claim, "you're being dramatic, is it your time of the month, stop saying ridiculous things, it's your teenage hormones, you want attention don't you?" that's not true. i just want somebody who cares about me!! i might as well die nobody cares about me.

edit: i have never cut or hurt myself like that. but i feel like i am breaking. i feel like i am just going to lose control and go beyond cutting. (after my parents got divorced last year i had these feelings... and it's all thanks to that f* bitch & my dad who ruined my family) i need help i want to cut myself so badly do you know how hard it is to control myself!!!!!)

[Stellata]

Yes. I know how hard it can be to control yourself, when everything is storming around in chaos inside.

If you ended your life... you would no longer be there to have any feelings. Nor to feel any caring.

I am sure people care. Its just not in a way that's tangible to you right now.

Keep breathing, slow deep breaths, and keep posting here, we care and want to help you through this.

[Jenner]

Hi there,
Firstly, I care about you. I know you may not believe it, but I know what it is like to feel out of control. You are not alone, I promise. And there is always hope. You won't feel like this forever.
Sometimes it is hard for people who love you and care about you to accept that you are in pain and upset. Keep talking, keep breathing and keep safe.
PM me if you need/want to, Take Care Jen xx

[stophurtingme]

thank you for your support, this is extremely hard thanks for showing you care<3