*clears throat* You have no idea how hard it's been not to post in the past 2 days, because I wanted to spend my 4000th post on this thread :P
I'm not really good at these mushy speaches, so I'll keep it short and hopefully won't embarrass myself too much.
*holds up keyboard* Right, I'd like to thank the Academy...
Er.
Ok, so I've been here..quite a while. A long while. And most would think it's not such a great thing, but in the past 4 years a LOT has changed in my life and ultimately got me to where I am now.
I've recovered.
There isn't a part of that even wants to ever SI again, even if I am having a bad day. I fight for the happiness I know I deserve. I have plans for the future, and I'm going to do everything in my power to make sure they happen, because finally having a goal and a purpose is something I've been waiting for a long long time. I've let go of the things I needed to in order to move on with my life and to stop living in the past, constantly wishing I could change it.
Instead of cooking in my own bitterness and spreading it onto others I'm trying a different route. I know I've been a burden sometimes and have caused trouble, but things are going to change. I'm trying to redeem myself.
I know I have no need to stay here, but I'm going to anyway to help those who still need support with their recovery. If it was possible, I'd see to it that everyone got to where I am now, especially those who've helped me through my evil/grim/bitter/painful/sad/angry days.
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So much for short.
But yes, what I'm trying to say, in a long roundabout waffly kinda way, is thank you. Again. For putting up with me for another year :P
And for the wonderful people I've met in that time *eyes her sexy irish girl* :]
Big squishes to everyone *throws them about in the air*
...and nobody dare call me soft damnit! *glares at Zoe and Amy*
im so proud that you'v come far enough to be able to write this in a way that means your free from it all completely. and im glad you can see the happiness you deserve, because you do deserve it. you're amazing. and if being in the mess im in has done anything good its led me to meet you. and thats something that makes me insanely happy. i love you. so very much, like really. you're my dirty sexy polish girl and god damnit i love it lol you're seriously one of the sweetest people in this world. for laughing and crying with me and encouraging me to get over this aswell, thank you. keep strong babydoll. because you deserve all the happiness in the world.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
**wipes tear**
Well it was kinda a soft post. And you have been really rather soft lately. We all knew you had a big heart hidden somewhere beneath the evil, bitter exterior :p
"Be nice. Think happy thoughts. Champion silver linings. Love all things (not just cute things like babies and kittens) & when you do love - love like they do in power ballads (you know like on a cliff with the wind in your hair and your eyes shut, knowing you'll never know love like this). Watch out for dog poo. Smile at people - even grumpy ones. Remember anything is possible & whatever you do always try to look on the bright side."
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*throws them about in the air*
