Triggering (SI) - All over the place.....

bexie · 03-06-2008, 07:50 PM

well im just all over the place....
im physiaclly and emotional exausted. i want to cut but iv gone so long without it now...

but i could do with the relase and the way it made me feel.
i dont know what to do.

im sooo counfused i dont know what i want or what to do.

i feel like im being pushed from piller to pole and i cant take it!

ahhhhh! i wish i could just cut it al out and take it away from me.

Just Believe. · 03-06-2008, 07:54 PM

I'm sorry things are hard for you just now. You are doing really well with not hurting yourself, try and keep yourself distracted as best you can. Remember there is the F&D board and the RYL Games arcade there for you to use if you need them.

Do you think you could talk abit more about what is making you want to cut? Are you getting any help at the moment?

Look after yourself
Kirsty x

bexie · 03-06-2008, 07:57 PM

i gots the tv on atm....
im getting counselling at college but thats stopping coz im finishing college.

Parents spiltting up and dads moving 200 miles away, i wanna go with him but then i dont, i dont know where im gunna live at the moment either.

i dont know, im just really down and soo tired.

GrimmFaerieTale · 03-06-2008, 08:01 PM

**Hugs** Sorry to hear you're feeling like this, and about your parents as well. Is where you live something you have to decide straight away? I know it's a very long way away, but if college is finishing soon, maybe you could spend some time with each parent? This may help give you some time to make what must be a huge decision for you. Sorry I don't have any good advice xxx

bexie · 03-06-2008, 08:20 PM

*huggs* i dont need to decied straight away
but dads moving in with his gf (who is lovely) and mum is probs goin 2 move in with the **** she had an affaire with.
i swap between the two atm, buit i dont know
its horrible.

GrimmFaerieTale · 03-06-2008, 08:36 PM

That must be so hard. *Hugs* I don't know what to suggest for you sweety, other than make sure you do what's right for you, and take your time xxx

Cazki · 03-06-2008, 11:27 PM

Hey there *Cuddles you* Sorry that your having such a difficult time. Im not surprised with all of what is going on that your feeling low and exhausted. I cant begin to imagine how difficult this is for you. But i want to say to you that i care about you and that im here for you if you need me. Im very proud of you though, you have been trying very hard not to hurt yourself and thats not any easy thing to do. Keep doing your best as you have been doing, you will get through this. We are all here for you to. Here is a link to the fun and distractions section http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum...splay.php?f=22 and also a link to ryls sudoku challenge http://www.recoveryourlife.com/index.php?categoryid=13 which i hope you will find helpful. Im thinking of you.

Take care best wishes Ian xxxxxxxxx