I did it. F**k, I can't believe I did it. It's been about 2 -3 weeks non stop of SI. And my counsellor cancelled my appointments as I posted before, so I took everyone's advice. And I found someone else to talk to about it,
I thought at first Mrs.Ingram in school, so I went to her, she was busy today, I thought ' I matter, I'm going to get this sorted out, it's controlling me now, I can talk to someone about it! ' She told me to see Mr.davies instead, I couldn't say it aloud, we were in the leisure centre for an exam.
So I went down to school walked in, shitting myself completely because Mr.Davies still scares me, lol. So I thought and thought. I was going to get something sorted right there and then, Then I remembered there was someone else in school who said " I'm always here if you need to talk".
Mr evans. So I did it, I went into his room, really really scared.
And he said "hey han"
and I said "umm..

hi sir, basically I'm self harming everyday and I can't stop it, and I don't want to stop it, Mrs.Ingram was busy today, and Mr.Davies isn't here right now, so I remebered that you said 'you can always come to me if you need to talk', so here I am, because right now I'm in a mess

and I need to talk to somebody "
" I am here Hannah to talk" he said and explained that
he was teaching in a few minutes, so he was busy then too! But what he did do was we set up a time for tomorrow, and tomorrow at 10'oclock I'm going to talk to him about SI before my french exam.
I'm going to go for it.
And I'm just gunna rant away, but in sense order.
lol
I thought alot about RYL and how I could do it with the support from RYL
I thought about printing off my thing from the serious disussion board and giving it to him tomorrow, I could stop at the library on the way
xxxx
<3
Han