It's been more than a month now. Continually, every single day....
It used to just be one voice, occasionally, telling me to walk in front of cars, jump of buildings. But it was friendly, it wanted to help me die .......
And now, now it's all ****ed up.
In time the voice changed, it turned against me, it gets angry when I don't do what it says, when it tells me to SI to kill, or OD and I don't do it.....it gets angry and starts swearing and shouting at me, telling me I'm a stupid bitch who deserves to die.
And the other voices, they came along about a month ago
It sounds like I have 4 different ones in my head
They tell me to stab, cut, OD, Kill. I don't know what they want from me
But I think they want me to kill people then kill myself
They tell me everyone can hear my thoughts and read my mind
and that I should stab them and cut them to make them get out of my head
When I'm out in public I can hear everybodys thoughts in my head
and the voices tell me that they're trying to access my thoughts....
I'm on Olanzapine 12.5mg, I've been on it for about 3 weeks
started on 7.5mg and it's been slowly upped to 12.5mg because even though the voices aren't screaming at me from the moment I wake up to the moment I go to sleep, of a night time they get bad and start at me.
The Olanzapine has definatly reduced the voices a lot, I only hear them of a nightime sometimes now, and very rarely in public, but they are
still here
Wheras before I used to hear the voice occasionally now it's nearly every day, and I've never had the voices for this long,
ever!
When will they stop???
Its been nearly a month now, and even though the Olanzapine helps
it hasn't made them go away completely.
Will they ever go away???
Because even though I'm not hearing them as much or as badly these days it still freaks me out and I don't want to hear them at all
When will they stop????
