Triggering (Suicide) - Mild Crisis - what can I do, where can I get help?

[quautia]

Just back from A&E. Went there with suicidal ideation. Saw Crisis Team. Letter sent to Pysch. No help tonight. Got to wait a few days.

Any ideas? Just need to get through a few days. Not keen on Samaritans - talking won't help, I need action.

Cheers.

[ThinkingofRecovery]

Is there a possibility of home visits or telephone calls from the crisis team in the meantime?

[quautia]

Crisis Team didn't mention anything, didn't give me any phone numbers or anything.

I saw GP last week, don't really want to bother them again. Don't fancy sitting in A&E to not be helped either, but I can see myself ending up there.

I don't want to bug people to give me help.

I keep thinking that I don't deserve help. Maybe I'm not actually that ill, maybe I'm just imagining it. Maybe they want me to die. Maybe I'm just being dramatic and I'm not depressed, I'm actually just a bit low. Maybe I'm actually happy.

[ThinkingofRecovery]

I completely understand what you mean re not knowing if you are actually depressed etc. I always think that perhaps they all think I am imagining things or over-reacting etc (my housemate says it paranoia).

I don't know how it works where you are but we have a 24 hour crisis team number and an A&E liaision team (and hospital at night team that takes over from them at 9pm). If we call the A&E dept, you can ask for the mental health bleep holder. You might want to try that and ask for the contact 'phone numbers. If you see the liasion/hospital at night team/crisis team they usually give you a sheet with any relevant support numbers.

I know it's difficult to ask for these things. I find it hard to admit I need help and have been obstructive and obnoxious with people (including the crisis team).

The numbers are also available on our local borough/city council website with a bit of digging. Perhaps you could check there?

It's worth a try to get the crisis team contact number though. Sometimes, knowing someone is going to call/visit at a certain time helps you hold on and also knowing that you can call whenever can be a great help as well.

If none of the above is any use, I want you to remember that you aren't bugging people for help and that if you are having suicidal ideation you do need and deserve help.

Take care!

*Bangs head against a brick wall several times*

I get so angry about situations like this. Hello, this young woman is suicidal, what you going to do? Oh yes, send her off home, get in touch in a few days time..that's really going to help. *Smacks the mental healthcare profession several times over*

I've had very very similar problems in the past with situations like this. I think you should be proud of yourself for getting as far as you have by going to A&E for support. And i'm sincerely sorry you haven't recieved the right support from them.

Try to distract yourself. I know it's difficult because i've been/am in a similar boat as yourself. But i find distractions helpful.
Online Games?
Movie? Television?
A walk?
You can email the samaritans if you don't wish to talk on the phone to them. I've found this helpful (although can become frustrating when waiting for a reply).

Try hang in there hun.
You won't be bugging your GP either, they're there for that purpose to help you, and with any luck they may get on the crisis team's case to get things moving quicker.

*hugs*
If you need me feel free to PM me.
Take care of yourself xx

[quautia]

I don't understand this.

He asked me if I thought about suicide, and I told him yes, I plan it, and think about it a lot. He asked if I'd chosen a method, and I said I was most likely to OD. He asked if I had an medication at home, and I told I had lots - three types antidepressants and lots of painkillers. He asked if my Husband new I had stockpiled them, and I said no. He then said I was okay to go home.

I'm just sitting here waiting for the phone to ring. Hopefully it will soon. I dont think I'll fight anymore though. I'm not going to bother kicking up a fuss, just going to ride this out and keep fingers crossed.

Thanks for all the advice and support.

[angels touch]

i know exactly how u feel.. u want help but u feel u dont deserve it or its annoying people to ask.
ive been to A&E twice for the same intentions as you. they never really help to a large extent. i dont speak to samaritans because i dont want to speak to someone who's job it is to pretend to care....
The only advice i can give is to stop waiting for that phone call... as hard as it is, the more hope u put on the call the more you'll believe they dont care when it takes forever to phone back...
Im sorry that i cannot be of much help but you will have to keep hoping...
"I lived for yesterday to see if today would be better. now im here i wait some more, but i know one day i'll wake up and those clouds will dissapear... hapiness takes time"
HOLD ON MY FRIEND!
LOVE YOU LOADS!!!
Xxxxxxxx

I think the point is you shouldn't have to get on their case to get help. You made the crucial step to go to hospital, therefor, they should have taken action straight away, not just left you to stew. It's unfair. The system is seriously bloody faulty.

Try to hang in there hun..we're all behind you here..or atleast i am.
If you need to talk i'm here.
take care of yourself
xx

[Steel Maiden]

The way they treated you is disgusting.
How are you now? Did the phone ring? What happened?

[quautia]

I got an emergency appointment with my GP. She prescribed Diazepam and some sleeping pills to get me through. She said it wasn't right that I was taken off tablets suddenly with no support in place.

CMHT phoned back and I've got an appointment with a different Pysch on Thursday.

Starting to feel bad again now, it seems to get worse as the day goes on. Taken some diazepam, but anxiety is through the roof. Everything OH does is winding me up. Might go and lie down.

[Steel Maiden]

How did the appointment go?