Triggering (SI) - Bad thoughts

Ragdoll · 29-05-2008, 01:16 PM

Having bad thoughts. Cut tuesday, looked a bit gunky yesterday, will keep an eye on it.

Scared of getting infection cos dont want to harm baby, but need something, need to do something, I can feel everything building up inside.

Keep thinking of shutting my hand in the door, that would hurt me but not baby, tyring to stay safe but its hard

blondiebear · 29-05-2008, 02:24 PM

Please be good to yourself. Scream, cry, draw, write. Do whatever you have to to take care of you. Yes, you want to take care of the baby. You need to take care of yourself too. You are worth it.

Ragdoll · 29-05-2008, 05:03 PM

I went for a walk with the dog, and feel more positive for it. Also Rusty's taken the day off work tomorrow so we can have some time together before I go away to visit family for the week, so I'm looking forward to having him around tomorrow x

Ragdoll · 29-05-2008, 07:35 PM

I try to take him for a walk when I feel myself going a bit stir crazy, and it often helps - I'm harming a lot less than I used to, a combination of pregnancy and dog keeping me distracted!

One of the most wonderful things in the world is to lie on the sofa, feeling my baby moving inside me. I try to concentrate on that when I'm low, too.

Anyway, Rusty will be home in half an hour or so, and I can have a big cuddle then - I've stayed safe so I'm happy with that.

Thankyou for the support, it really helps xxx