He told me he wants to be single for a while. He said he'll still see me, come over when I need him, give me cuddles whenever I need them. But he wants to be classed as single.
He says he's just feeling rough at the moment and wants one less thing to have to worry about, like a relationship. I didn't think I was 'something to worry about'
First he said for about a year, while I get college out of the way, then he said he might just want to be single over the summer because he doesn't want to leave me for that long. But doesn't that sound a little suspect? To be single over the summer, doesn't that mean he'll want to flirt with other girls?
And he said it was because college would get in the way of our relationship, but I wont be at college and he wont be at uni over the summer.
This is absolutely killing me. I love him so much it hurts.
I keep feeling like it's my fault:
I shouldn't have put on so much weight
I shouldn't have been in hospital four times this year
I shouldn't have pushed him away everytime he wanted sex
I don't deserve to live. I don't want to live without him.
this pic is so i can always remember jen who was my l'il sock monkey friend who has left ryl and i miss her!!! 
