Triggering (SI) - I cant cut before Turkey

[Ghostface]

So, im gonna rant again. Im going to turkey 25.june with a friend and her family. I thought I would be able to stop cutting for a short period now, in order to not have any fresh scars/wounds when I get down there. Im not even sure how im gonna cope with having all these scars if people comment or stare, so having new ones would be even worse

I have to stop, if only for a month, but I cant . Help? I dont know what to do, I dont wanna go down there anymore. I just wanna sit home and cut, as stupid as it sounds.

Ive read all the distracionstuff on here, but it's not helping.

[green.eyes]

*hugs* have you tried buying bio oil which reduces scaring and putting it on when you wanna cut? it can remind you that your scars are fading and hopefully prevent you from making new ones. flick elastic bands, squeeze ice cubes, throw things, draw on yourself. stick a list of reasons not to cut somewhere you look at often.
i know you may have encountered some/all of these before but apart from that you have to rely on your will power. you CAN do this and it will be worth it to have a stress free holiday.
talk to us when the urges are too bad.
go on chat.
anything to stay distracted.
take care
PM me anytime

[Ghostface]

Ye....But I keep on thinking that people will stare anyway, because of the scars I already have...Doesnt really matter if I get a few more, im already screwed.

Ive ordered bio-oil...

[Ghostface]

It's really hard to breath right now. I've had periods with breathing problems since I was a child. It can suddenly start, and I have no idea why:/ Nothing seems to be able to make it better, so I just have to wait for it to pass. But in the mean time, it's so tempting to cut. It's the only thing that makes me able to breath normally, not for a long time,but at least for a little while.

I feel so alone, and exhausted. I hate it when I get this breathing problems on top of everything else, havent had it in a while now :/ I dont know what to do, Im not able to focus on anything.. I have to cut, im going crazy.

[Ghostface]

When Im tempted to cut, one of the main things I usually do, is sleep.
But I can't sleep when I feel like I cant breath :( And I get scared too, cant help it.

[Ghostface]

I cant even cry, cause when I do, I start hyperventilating

[Hope_Forever]

HUGS. If you need to talk let me know, and it always work for me to cry and let go the pain and write how I feel.