Triggering (SI) - problems with my sister

[silentgirl]

Hi

lately my older sister has been a total bitch. Last week when we were out for dinner with family etc, i was msging my tutor and she got all offence and she thought that i had cut and that she told me that if i did, id be kicked out of the wedding.
like wtf ?
the other day i think she found out about ryl. I wasnt on the computer but i had left the laptop open and i was testing on my laptop to c if it would work or not, but thankfully it didnt work even tho i am now worried that she may remember the address and google it or something!!!!!!!! I may just be paranoid and i know that to help solve these problems that there is the panic button but i couldnt access it cos it was only the address that she saw. Im lucky that after all the comp wasnt working propperly and the whole page didnt load or i would have had to press the button. oh i dont know i am sorrry that this is so useless but i feel that i am a bad person cos of my self harmin and the way that my sister acts towards it.

silentgirl

[Just Believe.]

Does your sister understand about your self harm? It could be that she acts the way she does about it because she is scared/doesn't understand it properly. Have you tried explaining it to her?

Can you talk to her and tell her how the way she behaves is making you feel? Maybe you could ask her straight out about wether she saw anything on your laptop, at least that way you will know for sure one way or the other.

*cuddles*
Take care and feel free to pm me if you need to talk.
Kirsty x

[Popple]

*cuddles*
Sweetie you are not a bad person for self harming
The way your sister is treating you is wrong but it may be that she just doesn't understand it and so gets angry about it.
Could you try explaining things to her
or print some information off and give it to her to read.
Also could you talk or write to her saying that the things she is saying is not helping and making things more difficult.
I am sure she doesn't want to hurt or upset you but she probably doesn't know what to do.
Take care of yourself hun and remember none of this is your fault and you can get through it.

much love

[Getting_There_Monkey]

your not a bad person for selfharming at all

maybe write her a letter explaining it all, explain why you do it, how it helps you just things like that