So today (May 21st) is my first wedding anniversary.
I should be happy right? *starts to cry* Well I can't be happy... cuz my husband is 6000+ ****in miles away (in Iraq)
He is coming soon, in like a 2 weeks (or so) actually, so part of me says I should be happy about that at least...
why is it so hard to focus on the fact that he will be home soon?!?!
I'm sorry guys, but just really use some hugs right now, especially cuz I was just in chat and expressed how sad/lonely I was...
and no one seemed to give a rat's ass... they didn't even acknowledge my pain!!!
*sobs* Is it so wrong for me to want someone to at least acknowledge that I am hurting and at least TRY to console me???
Arrgh... I feel bad for posting this, I mean, I am "the un-official RYL hugger"... I am supposed to give hugs. ><
Sorry for bothering you guys with my rant... and I'm sorry about the bad words I used. :(
Last edited by BoundNoMore : 21-05-2008 at 05:46 AM.
Reason: Title spelling correction ><
We're all in the same game;
Just different levels.
Dealing with the same hell;
Just different demons.
i cant say that i know how you feel but it must be really hard for you having your husband so far away but he will be home soon. im sorry that you are in so much pain i hate it when others are hurting and i love to cheer people up (its kinda my thing it makes me feel better) and dont worry even though you are the un-official hugger its okay if you need hugs too! i hope that these next two weeks go by fast for you! PM me anytime you need some cheering up i will keep you and your husband in my prayers
<3 rach
Thanks Rach...
it's just hard cuz not long before my husband was deployed, I had a cousin who was over there getting ready to come home (like hubby is now)... and he was killed.
AND a few days before we married I had a "friend" at work tell me that getting married before a deployment "is not a good idea... you are too young to be a widow."
So now all that keeps racing through my head is "your too young to be a widow." "You're too young to be a widow." "you're too young..."
We're all in the same game;
Just different levels.
Dealing with the same hell;
Just different demons.
wow thats a lot to deal with try not to let what others say get to you and apperantly that wasnt a good friend because that was a very mean thing to say. keep your head up try going wout with some REAL friends and have a good time!
In forgiving others, we are not exonerating them. They may not deserve exoneration. Rather, in forgiving others we are giving up our anger over the fact that what happened is not what "should" have happened or that our life is not the way it "should" have been.
oh Amanda, that must be awful.
DAMN WAR.
*hugs* i know its awful to have someone suggest horrible things like that.
jsut try to concentrate on the fact that he IS coming home soon. plan out nice thing you can do together when he gets back, places you can go together, things you can cook for him etc.
Even as the stone of the fruit must break
that its heart may stand in the sun,
so must you know pain.
There are only two ways in which one can live their life. One is as though nothing is a miracle, the other is as though everything is.
*sobs* Is it so wrong for me to want someone to at least acknowledge that I am hurting and at least TRY to console me???
Arrgh... I feel bad for posting this, I mean, I am "the un-official RYL hugger"... I am supposed to give hugs. ><
Sorry for bothering you guys with my rant... and I'm sorry about the bad words I used. :(
Hugging you as tight as I can - we love that you give tons of hugs but everyone needs hugs and you deserve just as many if not more back - so you don't need to appologise for posting.
I am sorry that you didn't get the response you needed or deserved in chat - wish I had been there - but I have never visited chat yet.
2 weeks and your hubby will be home - have you got anything planned? it must be so hard being away from him on your 1st anniversary, know that he will missing you tons and wishing that he could be with you. It must be such a worry for you having him out there - and we all know that nad things do happen out there - but that doesn't mean it is going to happen to him - try and keep yourself busy over the next two weeks - and try not to dwell on what happened to others - I know it's hard but there is no reason the same thing will happen to you. Hugs xx
I wish I could say more to help you but I really don't know how to so I am just going to send you 100 more hugs instead and say that I am here for you if you need me. xxx
Loneliness with or without people, a feeling that comes from inside
Unable to show your true feelings, Unaware of the things that you hide
A life built around a pretending, feeling things that you think you should feel
A life unaware of it’s ending – is there a chance it could ever turn real?
My Lovely Daughters: Reason[TO]Believe, Bound by Thoughts, and Kija. My Little Sisters: Automatik Teknicolour and Pomegranate. My Big Sister: Lil-Princess. My Neice: forever_lost*
In forgiving others, we are not exonerating them. They may not deserve exoneration. Rather, in forgiving others we are giving up our anger over the fact that what happened is not what "should" have happened or that our life is not the way it "should" have been.
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