Triggering (SI) - 17 stitches....

[xSoFtBaLlgirly5x]

I had to get 17 stitches yesturday! It sucks soo bad!
I dont know how I could be soo stupid. I want to stop but I cant!
No matter how hard I try and all the promises I make saying that I wont do it again....I always fail!
This life isnt even worth it. I am such a disappointment to you guys and everyone around me. I never seem to do anything right....
I am soo angry with myself! I hate myself soo much!
My arm reallyyyyy hurts and I cant stop crying1
I dont know how I could be so stupid!
Why did I have to turn out like this? Why me....I dont get it!?
I have everything I could ask for (except a loving and excepting family) and I still cant manage to be happy!
I'm done ranting now...you guys are probably sick of listening to me already! Thanks for listening though!

<3 Ashley

[Pomegranate]

*hugs you* I am sure you aren't a disappointment to people and you aren't stupid or a failure because you cut. You just sound as though you are going through a really rough time and need some support and comfort. A loving and excepting family is a big thing to be missing and you shouldn't disregard the pain that can cause. I hope your arm feels better soon, I always find that it's the swelling which causes most of the pain rather than the stitches themselves. It should go down in a couple of days or so *hugs* xx

[Cazki]

Hey there *Big hugs* Please dont be so hard on yourself. Your having an extremly difficult time. Your not stupid, your not a failure and your certainly not a dissapointment. I know your angry and upset but being hard on yourself will only make things worse. Please try to calm down. Take lots of deep breaths. We all care about you and we are all here for you and will do our best to help you. It doesnt matter how many times you post we are always happy to help you. I really hope you feel better soon. Self harm is extremly addictive which is why its so hard to stop. Look after yourself and take it easy.

Best wishes Ian xxxxxxxx

[mskenpoman]

im really sryy u had to get stitches. ur not the only one having a hard time stopping. *hugs*

[xo_fallenfaerie_ox]

Don't be so hard. It's not going to help any. Try and set some goals for youself. I'm kinda in the same boat as you but not as bad. I'm afraid it will. If you need anything, I can help! *hugs tightly*

[GirlAfraid]

I've been there.... A&E trips are horrible aren't they?

You're not stupid though! Please try not to be angry with yourself, (easier said than done, I know) it's not your fault you feel this way. You never asked for any of this! None of us did. I guess we're just unlucky or something, idk.

I know what you mean about having everything you need but still being unhappy, I feel like that a lot too.

*hug*

Hope you're feeling better today x

[Getting_There_Monkey]

Your not stupid at all, giving up is really hard and can be a hard struggle. but you just have to take it hour by hour and day by day and when you feel the urge distract yourself, you deserve a decent life like everyone else does
(((hugs)))

hope ya ok x