Triggering (Suicide) - How much longer?

[*unlovedmonkey*]

I seriously don't know how much longer i can live this life. Everything bad that happens feel my fault even though i know it isnt. it would just be alot better if i wasnt here anymore... no body would notice there too busy in their own lifes and all have there own problems... i cant even turn to my ex boyfriend anymore hes had enough of my problems and now we have split he dont need to know about them... My self harming is just getting worse but everyone thinks i have stopped but now im doing it in new places... if i just dissappeared then i wouldnt notice anything... im nto strong enough anymore all my hope of having a better life has gone it cant be improved from how it is now... but honestly if i went i wouldnt be missed anywhere or by anyone to them it would make there lives better... oh well... now what do i do... i have no friends who care enough anymore. no one to love oh well... sorry to bother you

[Tig]

Hey,

I think you are worth more than you think but it is hard to see that, and I'm sorry you have such a low opinion of yourself. (((Huggles))) Things sound very difficult at the moment and it must be hard having to keep up the pretence that you aren't self harming anymore, I find that very draining. Is there somebody that you could trust to tell them about the self harming? Perhaps a Doctor or somebody else in a profession like that, you might find it easier than talking to friends because they will be able to cope with what you want to talk about. If you don't want to talk to anyone then please keep talking to us on RYL, sometimes even if it's just over the internet it is better to have somebody know that you are struggling.

You aren't bothering us here and we care about you. I am sure a lot of people care about you, but sometimes low self esteem and depression can make that seem and feel really untrue. Please remember it's not and if you can, please go to your GP.

Lotti
x

[Buttercup.]

Calm down sweetheart, deep breathes.

I am so sorry you are feeling this way. It must be so hard to deal with, but you do have the strength to get through this. I can tell you are a strong person, know why? Because you had the courage to write this all down and share it with us. You can get through this, just keep holding on.

Break-ups are always difficult. From experience I understand that they can make you feel like your world is ending. Like you have no reason to live. Like you a worthless. But hun, none of that is true. You have plenty of reasons to live, you are worth more than you can ever imagine, and you have a bright future ahead of you.

The depressed and hopeless mindset that you are in right now is clouding your view of reality. You feel like nobody cares and nobody would miss you if you were gone. Reality is, there are plenty of people who love and care about you, plenty of people who want to help you through this difficult time, people who would be devastated if anything were to happen to you. This is the truth, I promise.

Is there anything else going on in your life to make you feel this way? What kind of problems do you have right now? What's on your mind? If you ever want to talk about anything or just need a listening ear, PM me. Talking can help so much.

Try taking a look at this, Things to consider.

*cuddles* Don't give up babe, you can do this. I'm here if you need anything at all. Stay safe.

Jess xx

[confuzzled]

Sweetheart, i can't add much to what has already been said, but one thing i will say is that as cliche as it sounds, things won't stay like this forever. It will make you stronger. You have all the strength you need to get yourself through this. Trust me on that one. We all have if we, we just don't believe it ourselves until we are out of the woods, only then will you realise how strong you are.
Feelings/emotions/situations can and do change. Everything changes, so you just need to keep hanging on for that. Things seem pretty low at the moment, but who's to say that it won't change. No one can see into the future. You can't determin what will happen. However you can set out goals which will help you get the future that you want. You can sort out things now which will make things change in the future for you so that they aren't like this for you.
You've just got to keep going sweetheart. I know it's tiring but one day you will be thank full that you kept going.
Many of us have been where you are now and i bet most would agree that they are now glad they have pulled through it and didn't give up because you have so much more to give. We all have.
Chin up sweetheart.
Take care and if you need anything then don't hesitate to contact me. Anytime.
Take care darlin'.
Chloe. xx

[Stellata]

How about every time something difficult happens you take some time to write down what actually caused it, rather than blaming yourself? You could even do it for things that already happened....

When I was your age I couldn't even have begun to know or anticipate that my life would be as it is now, how much better it, and me, are. So there is hope. There is so much out there for you.