I have been dating Fates Reaper for almost a month now and it seems as though I have become addicted to him. Yes addicted to another human being. I have been battling addiction for 7 years and he has been attempting to help[ me with it and I thought I had been making huge progress because I have not used since we got together but he's been giving me a different kind of high to replace it. When he bites me (and I'm not talking nibbling. I end up with bruises bite) I get the same rush as when I cut. The other night he went home (he doesn't live with me but he's always here) and I started going through withdrawel. I coulden't sleep, I got a massive headache and I wanted to cut so bad I was planning out how to get a blade. The next day when I saw him he told me that he was gonna spend one more night at home to fulfill our 2 night a week quota (we try to spend 2 nights a week apart from one another). I thought I felt my heart shatter like glass. This is nothing like anything I have ever felt before! After about an hour I remembered that we hadhad plans for that day and I litterally went to hunt him down to tell him he couldn't stay at home that night, I ended up coming off as a bitch to his roommates just because I couldn't keep my head under control. After talking to him tonight, he's in the room with me right now, we realized that it was addiction, and we decided we were both gonna post about this.
Please if anyone has dealt with this before please tell me how you did it, he will not be reading this thread. If you have not been through it but you have a suggestion I would love to hear it. Hugs are also appreciated right now.
Thank you all
if you wanna check out his thread on this subject, here's the link.
http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum...681#post762681
