Triggering (Suicide) - Anhedonia (inability to feel pleasure)
Sorry that i've posted two threads in two days. Does anyone else feel like nothing is enjoyable or worthwhile? Everything that I do seems like a waste of time and I feel so low. I can't find anything that I feel good doing, sometimes I think it would be better if I just killed myself to get out of feeling this way. What is happiness? What feels good? What do you enjoy doing? I really need out of this. I have too much time on my hands now that I have left uni and there aren't any jobs available for me right now. Having a job would be a waste of time also.
I long to do something and feel so much pleasure. I like to read, I like to support on here, but I can't feel it any more. I used to have a befriender when I was younger and i'm sure I enjoyed going out with her. My psychologist recently referred me for another befriender but I had to withdraw the application so that I could apply for a job within the organisation. I'm not even sure that having a befriender would help this time, i'm so afraid and uncomfortable around people. Does anyone have any advice? I'm on antidepressants and in the middle of CBT.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
why would having a job be a waste of time? it's the one thing in my life that keeps me going - without that I'm not sure what would happen. Keep looking for one (it might not be the dream job right now - but it will be a start) - it gives you something to focus on, time away from your own thoughts and feelings - at first I thought I couldn't do a job as my mind was so busy - but now it concentrates on the work at hand and my thoughts wait till a bit later - also sometimes I can pretend to be really annoyed with something at work (when often I'm not) and I find I can release a bit of my hurt and anger on that instead of on myself. You never know it might help - I really hope you can find something - even temporarily to test it out.
Hugs, Katch xxx
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I have anhedonia as part of my illness. So I can understand. Perhaps try to find happiness in little things? I very occassionally smile when I succeed in doing something like a hard piece of homework. However I do spend most of my time feeling neutral or numb, I rarely smile or laugh, so I can understand. Its the little things that help though.
Sorry if this reply is incoherent and doesn't help.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
Example: I just finished revising chapter 16 of my A2 physics textbook. I can't say I feel happy and glorious about it, but I can say that I feel a bit pleased. Its one less chapter to revise later on and its one more chapter in my knowledge. So I do feel a bit pleased. Its an achievement, let's say.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
It is important to appreciate the little things in life. Without the little things in life to cheer us up, Humanity would not survive.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
I agree that it's important to enjoy the little things in life, sometimes it can be hard though. I'm on Prozac but am coming off it now so hopefully that will help. I'm going to try and find lots of exciting new hobbies, there's got to be something enjoyable out there! Thank you all for your replies.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
Good luck in finding a new hobby. I'd say look for an active hobby, and also a hobby that involves learning something new.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
