Triggering (SI) - feeling like it had to happen...

[randomtangent]

I guess this isnt too urgent, i just needed to talk this out...
I cut today. And it's almost like it wasnt a conscious decision. I just wasnt feeling right... like something was off.... I just feel like I cant even feel things right. like everything is sort of distant. and so I did it again...
And I just feel like it had to happen. like, there wasnt a choice. It just felt like the only way...
I'm just nervous about this happening again... I cant sleep, and I guess im just looking for support...
RT

[Whispering_Voices]

I know how weird it is to subconsciously SI. I've daydreamed countless times and found various lines on my arms. What you have to do is stay focused on the objective of beating the SIing. With that big objective complete, things become slightly easier to manage when you aren't getting urges to do it again.
Much Love,
Joe xx