Triggering (Suicide) - I hate doing this *Not sure how to feel about this one*

JDenning · 14-05-2008, 02:12 AM

Well I just want to say that for the record I don't get angry or depressed that easily, but I can't help it today, I got angry which leads to depression in my case, first off some guy i work with started talking to me I startred talking about my past and how I feel depressed all the time lately, he started asking me questions about it, and gave him my very simple answer of lonelyness, well he started probing more and more, and somehow or another ended up trying to put his beliefs onto me, no I nkow he was trying to help but it got me thinking, I dunno maybe I shouldn't talk to anybody about my suicidal thoughts or actions, maybe I should just keep it inside and let people think I'm happy, maybe it'll make it go away if I just find some pther release, or at least let people have good memories of me. Well this was only the beginning, while I was driving home form work today I was driving my POS car, and smoke started coming out of the air conditioning vents, I turned it of, but then started thinking to myself, why shouldn't I just let it go, what would anybody care if I got carbon monoxide poisoning and died, I mean who would care right? Well then I get home, things somehow or another found a way of getting even worse, so now I'm really ticked off and feel like hurting myself.

~*RazorbladeKiss*~ · 14-05-2008, 02:32 AM

hi,im so sorry about all of that..please try not to hurt yourself.
i know its hard...but theres one thing that helps me a lot when i feel triggered..doing something i really like. like playing a game or listening to music(but not sad ones)also some funny movies. it really helps most of the time.

hope u feel better soon :)

BoundNoMore · 14-05-2008, 03:31 AM

Hope things get better soon.

JDenning · 14-05-2008, 05:20 PM

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Originally Posted by ~*ScarredWithStars*~

hi,im so sorry about all of that..please try not to hurt yourself.
i know its hard...but theres one thing that helps me a lot when i feel triggered..doing something i really like. like playing a game or listening to music(but not sad ones)also some funny movies. it really helps most of the time.

hope u feel better soon :)

See this is what normally I'd do, but I haven't found any massively entertaining games lately, nor do I have to money right now to buy new ones, I don't have much free tiem since my job schedule is erradic. I listen mainly to angry musinc, things like metallica, drowning pool, saliva, I listen to Seether from time to time, but those are the big 4 for me. The movies I have I've seen at least a dozen times, so they aren't really funny anymore (aside from grandmas boy, which I can't find) I mean I'm not saying that these things don't work, its just that they aren't really working for me, but thanks for your advice