Worriedness *pos T*

[angelmillennium666]

i was at psychologist today..was informed of new meds i'll be getting, info about which will go to my GP via fax in the am.

It's to stop the occassional (sp??) voices and more than sporadic people that aren'r really there but seem as though they are...but I'm getting freaked...
1. she ssaid it's highly likely I'll put on weight with the tablets...but I've already put on a tonne of weight in the last while owing to my asthma meds -including corticosteroids which have bloated my thigs and calves something ridiculous..plus the steroid inhalers which are doing the same...then there's the fluoxetine which has also been adding to the weight gain...I'm dangerously close to ana recurring...I sooooooo do not want to go down that route again...the voices r saying the meds r only to increase my weight coz it's what i deserve n the Dr's think I'm lying..

and 2. (and this may sound really stupid, esp since the voices clearly aren't my friends) I think I'll miss them...

am I stupid for thinking like this??

[All I'm Living For]

i've never heard voices or seen things that arent there but i dont think you're stupid for missing them. you've lived with it for so long that its understandable that you'd miss them. even though they wouldnt be fun to have around, they've still been there for a while so i think it would be naturaly to miss them. kinda like if your brother/sister/whatever suddenly disappeared. it would feel weird.
as to your meds making you put on weight, could you talk to your psyc and gp about it? i'm sure they wouldnt want you to relapse into ana again either. there must be other meds you could try that wouldnt make you put on weight. and i think you should talk to your doc and/or psyc about your weight anyway. they could help you through it *hugs*
just a thought. keep it in mind.
take care.

soph.