GUESS WHAT?????!!!!! ***NEW *** UPDATE last post**
I AM SOOOO INCREDIBLY HAPPY IT IS NEAR UNBELIEVABLE (and kinda scary as well, just a lil tho!)
I just had to share..i hope no one minds??!!
Even tho lots of horrible things are happening right now..I have no urges..Im eating, IM going to RECOVER!!!!!!!
It is a beautiful, most indescribable feeling.
You can get here..you all can. I hope like hell its soon!!!
Again sorry..HAD to share!!! I could go out in the middle of the road and scream "I'm HAPPY!!!!!"
(wonder how long it would take the cops to show up ?? LOL LOL
thanks you , ALLLLLLLLL of YOU... for helping me to get myself HERE. Without your support and love, i couldnt have done it. You've boosted me up, when i wanted to quit and you were the stepping stone back up so i could fight again!!!
Thank you sooo much!!! Part of it is [a small part] is that hubby is going with m,e to my inept dr's and giving him holy hell about why im nopt in an ED clinic. My weight is very low. So it's great that he is going fight for me
the rest tho..is just FINALLY after who klnows HOW many years (Near 6-8) i have been put on the proper med, they are still tweaking qwith it..but it DEF works!!!
That's great! Your husband sounds very supportive, which is lovely to see.
It's so good to hear that things are finally working out for you, I hope you manage to get your doc to help you with your weight too. I'm sure you will, you sound like you're firmly on the road to recovery!
can i have my piercing now pwease? muhahahahaaaaaaa
~Phoenix~ is my Little Sister of Awesomeness and Self-Delusion :P Bitter Angel is my Mitten Animad is my Top Trump All Im Living For - Is my beautiful and special daughter who isnt called Kim but will moan if i dont add her :P
I'm so happy you are happy romp
Things seem to be working out and i hope you hold on to this feeling
LOL Jo xxxxx
"Because you don't notice the light without a bit of shadow. Everything has both dark and light. You have to play with it until you get it exactly right."
thank you alllllll so much much for caring so much about my happiness, for me sharing, that means the world to me!!!!
OH i dont thik it could get better; wonderful, truly wonderful real friends here, a soulmate, just so many ppl who care.
THANK YOU!!!!
I love ya alllllll
this is it....my true first step into recovering from ED.
Tonite, I am cooking dinnner (a rarity, easier not to eat if you dont smell the food).
I am making Grilled pork chops with mushroom soup on them DEEEEElicious!! Mashed potatoes with lots of butter and salt and pepper, and mixed veggies!!
AND!!!!!!!!! I"M GOING TO EAT AS MUCH AS I WANT!!!!!!!!!!!
With NO NO NO guilt!!!!
I'm scared (only a lil)
But i WANT to recover, i WANT to do this...
Just had to share again..i *think* im on my way....i really scared myself, with all the 'side effects' of this ED, not just what i saw, but what ios happening to my body.
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