Triggering (SI/Suicide) - cant cut it out

[bob--says--hi]

things are getting really hard for me i dont know how much longer i can cope with it all its getting to me too much now i have done all the distractions in the world i swear and i have tried unbelivably hard but i just cant cope with not SHing at the moment i need to do it

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i want to feel the blade drifting through my skin and feel that relief i get when i do it i need to feel it it feels so good!

if i dont SH i will do something worse i cant live without it and i dont know why!
its a big part of my life and has been for 2 years now so i cant just cut it out just like that!

[Pyro]

what have u tried to distract yourself? don't do anything, u should find something to distract yourself. if u cant think of anything, PM me and ill chat to u.

Pyro