everythings going wrong, im so close to the edge i cant take anything anymore. No one is listening, everyone just thinks its all ok. Everything is out of my control now, i cant control anything i do, im just sat in the background watching myself go crazy. Why cant anyone see how bad things are, even when i tell them, they are ignoring it, no one cares. my best friend hates me, ive lost her becoz im so fucked up, theres no point to anything anymore, ill just sit here and watch me lose it. I wana cut so bad, theres no room on my legs tho, no where to cut, things are bad, i cant go on anymore. Im a horrible worthless whore that deserves nothing and no one. When will i finally give in and accept that nobody wants me, theres nothing more left of me and no one will help me, i have nothing to fight for anymore, no one loves me, i need to go. please help me im losing this
I know what it's like to feel like there is nothing to fight for.
I know what it's like to feel that you are just watching yourself lose it.
You can fight, and you can get through this.
You're obviously stuggling a hell of a lot right now, but you can get through this hunni.
Do you see anyone professionally about the way you are feeling?
xxxxxx
-“And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to bloom.” Anais Nin-
Allie, Mutt, Great Grandma, Hope and Humbug. I love you and miss you all. xx
I was but cud only see them for 8 sessions and got nothing from it, then i saw a mental health team but they havent got back in touch with me, the drs are just saying im fine and dont want to do anything to help me, im literally screaming out for help and no one is listening, NO ONE, its driving me insane so ive got to deal with it on my own, which im clearly not, im ready to stop now
Ok, don't stop, keep fighting.
I'm sorry that the medical people have been of no use, and have not helped you. I personally think you should go back to the GP and tell them EXACTLY how you are feeling, maybe try seeing a different Doctor if you can, as you shouldn't have been left to deal with how you are feeling alone. You need to be really honest with them, and really tell them how you are feeling, so that they can try to understand. I would really advise making an appointment, and seeing how you get on.
Do you always see the same Doctor, as perhaps a different Doctor may be a better idea?
How about your family? Are they supportive?
xxxxx
-“And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to bloom.” Anais Nin-
Allie, Mutt, Great Grandma, Hope and Humbug. I love you and miss you all. xx
C/B,
I would like to help you in any way that I can, even if it is just to listen.
Please feel free to PM me anytime. (((hugs))) You can get through this.
We're all in the same game;
Just different levels.
Dealing with the same hell;
Just different demons.
Hello there *Hugs you* Im so sorry for what your going through. But please dont give up. You can get through this. We are all here for you. I can understand you being fed up with right now and that your really low. I think the best option would be to go back to your doctor and tell your doctor what happened when you has your 8 sessions and just be honest and say that it didnt help and that your really in need of help. Tell them how you feel. If you feel that no one is listening to you then tell your doctor its better to be honest than hide everything. You need to let the doctor know how you feel.
Are you able to talk to us about what it is that causes you to harm yourself? It sounds as if you have been through quite a difficult time. You really need to go back and see your doctor if you dont go back then the doctor wont be able to help you. I advise you to speak to him because if you leave it then things will only get worse and i really dont want you to get any worse than what you are. You dont deserve this. Im sorry that they havent listened to you and for the way that they have treated you.
Have you tried distracting yourself at all? There are lots of distractions you can try. Such as listening to music, doing jobs to keep yourself busy, watching a movie, posting on the fun and distractions forum, or going for a walk. There is also the big distractions list that has lots of other distractions you can try http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum...ead.php?t=1403 i really hope this is of some help to you. Please dont be so hard on yourself, your not a worthless w**** at all. You dont deserve nothing and no one either. Please be gentle with yourself, being so hard on yourself really wont help it will only make things worse i know you having an incredibly difficult time but you can get through this. Please dont think that you have to go through this alone. Please look after yourself.
Thank you so much for the replies. Sorry for the late reply ut ive been working all weekend and trying to keep myself really busy so i dont breakdown. I think it helped, im feeling a little it better altho im in physical pain now but i guess i cant complain aout that. i feel like 60% of the time im not in control and that anything i do is completely out of my control like someone else is in control and it freaks me out. Im going to go to the dr again, and ill try and be so honest, i just seem to get there nd everything just leaves my head and i dont know what to say. and im going to ring the MHT people nd see where they are at with my assessment and stuff because i havent heard anything in soooo long.
Thank you so much for the replies, it means a lot to know that someone out there is listening.
