Triggering (Suicide) - I'm at school, having a meltdown, and need help NOW, please.
I'm supposed to be in math right now, but I slipped out to work on a "sociology project." I couldn't stop throwing up last night, I didn't get much sleep.. I was gonna bring my phone to school, my friend was gonna help me though it by texting me, but my mom took my phone away.. I ended up screaming at her and calling her a f*ckin b*tch and a wh*re... She slapped me, I got on the bus, crying... And now I'm melting down again. I can't deal with this sh*t right now, I just.. I know I shouldn't be freaking like this, but everything is just tearing me down right now. I've been holding on (barely) the last 2 weeks because of a promise I made, but its getting hard to keep. Help? I'm sorry to be a burden, specially when people have much bigger issues going on.
If only you knew all the love that I've found, it's hard to keep my soul on the ground.
It all comes to you, you're gonna get what you deserve. Try to test that, you're bound to get served. Love's what I got, don't start a riot!
Without you pulling it the tide comes in, without you twirling it the earth can spin, without you pushing them the clouds float by.... If they can do without you duckie, so can I!
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You're under a lot of stress, and are being treated badly. It's no wonder you're crumbling under the strain. ((holds you gently))
Is there anyone at school you feel safe talking to?
is there soemone around you can talk to? or if not, another phone you could use to phone your friend. sorry you had a bad morning and you feel so bad, it'll be ok, you'll make it through *hugs*
Heya hun, I'm so sorry you're having a sh*t time of it all right now but just try and hold on in there and things will get better I promise you. Is there not anyone you can talk to while you're at school, like a teacher, the nurse, support worker??? Try and look after yourself and PM me if you like
Alyssa xx
I hate asking people for help. It makes me feel like a burden. I broke down last period, ended up crying and doing a stupid thing.. I just can't handle this sh*t today. There isn't anyone I can really talk to, my favorite teacher isn't here today, the counsillers(sp?) would tell my parents,( I can't handle that) and most of my really good friends aren't here.. They've graduated, or they live somewhere else, or whatever.. I can't borrow a phone, its a long distance number.. I've just gotta hold on a couple more hours. Help?
If only you knew all the love that I've found, it's hard to keep my soul on the ground.
It all comes to you, you're gonna get what you deserve. Try to test that, you're bound to get served. Love's what I got, don't start a riot!
Without you pulling it the tide comes in, without you twirling it the earth can spin, without you pushing them the clouds float by.... If they can do without you duckie, so can I!
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Not here. I'm trying to figger out what I'm gonna do after school too. I don't wanna go home, but I don't have my car or my phone. I'm in here on the computer for the next hour and 1/2 or so... But after that, in 6th period, I'm gonna lose my mind... this sounds stupid, but they've been making fun of me, and I can't handle it anymore. I used to get teased in middle school.. It got to the point they wouldn't look at me in the halls because apparently I was just that ugly.. And they're teasing me again, and I feel just like I did back then... God, I'm such a weakling.
If only you knew all the love that I've found, it's hard to keep my soul on the ground.
It all comes to you, you're gonna get what you deserve. Try to test that, you're bound to get served. Love's what I got, don't start a riot!
Without you pulling it the tide comes in, without you twirling it the earth can spin, without you pushing them the clouds float by.... If they can do without you duckie, so can I!
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it's horrible them teasing you, i'd say ignore them but that's so hard. just know that the things they say aren't true, and you're not a weakling, you're strong for coping with this. i don't know, would it be possible for you to go to a friend's place before going home, get the bus there or something? or somewhere to make going back home easier to handle.
I've got an ortho app, but I think I'm gonna skip it. My friend Erin is gonna walk home with me, and then she and I are gonna go somewhere. I'm trying to ignore then the best way I can, but I'm just.... I can't deal today. I need help, but I don't know who to ask or what to do or anything.
If only you knew all the love that I've found, it's hard to keep my soul on the ground.
It all comes to you, you're gonna get what you deserve. Try to test that, you're bound to get served. Love's what I got, don't start a riot!
Without you pulling it the tide comes in, without you twirling it the earth can spin, without you pushing them the clouds float by.... If they can do without you duckie, so can I!
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Melancholia is my mummy Black Rose is my cupboard hiding in buddie All I'm Living For owns me...i'm her pet frog Aimee in Wonderland is my best-ever-man-girl-lover Lozza is my lovely care bear
I pulled it through yesterday... Barely, but I made it. I went to my orthodontist(sp?) appointment, then went to see Bryn's mom (apparently the bad things I've been swallowing have been tearing holes in my tummy, which is why I've been vomiting blood.. I should be ok if I only eat bread and stuff for a while, and take my meds. Uck.) Anyways, I talked to Jake till I fell asleep.. And today I kinda lost it again... Pegged my mom with my phone when she took it away. Whats wrong with me? Anyways, I dunno if I'm gonna make it through today alone... Help?
If only you knew all the love that I've found, it's hard to keep my soul on the ground.
It all comes to you, you're gonna get what you deserve. Try to test that, you're bound to get served. Love's what I got, don't start a riot!
Without you pulling it the tide comes in, without you twirling it the earth can spin, without you pushing them the clouds float by.... If they can do without you duckie, so can I!
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I'm in 3rd period right now, I've gotta make it through the rest of the day without cussing anyone else out, and without crying. Dunno how I'm gonna do that.
If only you knew all the love that I've found, it's hard to keep my soul on the ground.
It all comes to you, you're gonna get what you deserve. Try to test that, you're bound to get served. Love's what I got, don't start a riot!
Without you pulling it the tide comes in, without you twirling it the earth can spin, without you pushing them the clouds float by.... If they can do without you duckie, so can I!
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Hunni, can you talk to someone about how you're feeling? I'm sorry you're feeling like this and what's happening right now. You can get through this. Stay strong. xo.
I'm locking this thread, as although the support is absolutely fantastic, and it's lovely to see such wonderful replies and caring people, the thread is almost a year old.
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