So for those of you that know me i thought i'd give you an update.
Im doing alright i guess. I got rid of my boyfriend who was trapping me, controlling me, made me loose all my friends and doing other stuff that was bringing me down big style.
So im better off without him im free and single, but hey its not the end of the world i have some freedom.
In a bit of a bad place at the moment though, but its nothing major just feeling down again all my emotions are up and down. I feel lost i feel confused i don't know where i'm heading with my life, job ect. I'm still trying to get my mates back after the ex drove them away.
Im scared of loosing what i have at the moment and thats bringing me down as well, im scared of change im scared of what the future may bring and im scared of what im going to do as well.
Thoughts of cutting have started creeping back into my head but im fighting them off still. it never gets any easier.
thats all for now. I hope you are all doing alright. i dont really know what to say anymore.
Ann!!!!!!! *tackles and big hugs* Kudos on getting rid of such a negative influence on your life. Proud of you honey! I hope things go up and up! You can get past this newest hiccup in your life! I have faith in you hon! PM me some time!!!
Jess
"Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind."
ANN!!!!!!! so good to see you , just not cos you're feelling so low..
But YOU know you can do this! you have fought, beaten and won much worse than this. But it is sio very hard..i guess you're wondering, when does it finally end; i would be....
Not got the words , just love and support and oh ann i have missed you so much *HUGE HUGS*
pm/msn/email anytime ok?
luv ya bunches :o)
romp
[oooohhh had to add...we just got two kittens, momma baby abnd HER baby; shelaighley , mom, and nimby , baby...tho i call her nimbly pegs lol.
Been interesting with all the dogs lol.]
Anyways, i soooo hope this 'patch' ends soonest.*hugs*
here for you:o)
heya Ann well done you for getting out of that situation... sounds like you made the right decision. sorry you are feeling so low at the mo and thats the reason we see you back here. but very glad to see you all the same xxx
Well done for getting out of a bad relationship. I hope you manage to sort things out with your friends. You have gotton so much better and you will keep getting so. *hugs*. You know where i am if you want me.
Thanks all, I was a bit apprehensive about posting as i thought no one would remember/care about me.
I'm feeling better than i was when i posted but im still feeling pretty down, but i dont think it's too much to worry about.
I think that the reason ive been feeling down is that i know pretty soon i'll have to start thinking about big decisions in my life, like a new job, moving out and stuff like that which is probably why im feeling down, as im still living with my parents and im going to 21 in november and i dont want to be living with them for the rest of my life. I know it may not happen in the next year however i got to start thinking about stuff like this finacially ect. I want some independence and the ability to do what i want when i want instead of living with my parents.
Im also just really confused about life ect because my best mate in the whole world we'll we've been best mates for the last 5 years or so, i think he's the one but for one we live on different islands for two im not having a long distance relationship id rather stay friends at this moment in time. Its really confusing and i dont fully understand and neither does he but im not going into all of that.
I also suffer with problems with major decisons, like if i want to go to uni, and what i want to do. I still live with my parents and have no plans to move out atm. Its too expensive and there is no way i could live on my own. I'll be 21 in august and people keep saying i have my whole life ahead of me so to do what i want to do. You do to, so make sure you are doing what you want to do, and not what other people think you should be doing. Theres nothing wrong with living with your parents, it has some definate advantages (e.g. lower rent, no council tax or extra bills, help when you need it)
I certainly do remember you and care about you. You are always welcome to email me and we could meet up sometime as i dont live that far from you. Take care of yourself please.
ann! hey! great to see you! congrats on getting rid of that guy and i hope you do well these days
sorry to hear about the thoughts of cutting
i just try to ignore them, you know
*hugs*
hey hun - who needs men??
keep fighting. be strong. you are bigger than the urges.
missing you lots, not much time to type - baby screaming... love you lots hunny, mand x
Mand, South Wales, Full-time working, single mother to 2 scarily independent girls.
I AM A PROUD PLUMERIA SISTER
