Triggering (Suicide) - Why am I even here?

madamoiselle · 06-05-2008, 04:21 AM

I feel like doing it. It is SO strong I feel like I might just break down and cry right now. I get angry or upset so quickly. I am just hurting everyone around me by being alive. I want to throw myself in front of a car right now. I just want to rest...for a long time.

Cazki · 06-05-2008, 09:18 AM

Heya there *lots of cuddles* Im terribly sorry to hear that you feel like ending it. Can you talk to us about what it is thats making you feel like this? Has something triggered you? Do you have any support at all? Like a counsellor? Please dont end your life. It would hurt more people if you were to end it, because it would effect everyone around you in different ways. Please think about this carefully before you think about ending your life. You dont have to go through this alone we are all here for you. Does anyone else know that your feeling like this? Please keep fighting through this. Please keep talking to us

Take care best wishes Ian xxxxxxxxxxxx

madamoiselle · 07-05-2008, 04:37 AM

I dunno...I feel so suicidal everytime I am with a certain group of people who are supposed to be my friends. I just feel so irritated at everything just to have people tell me that I am being so sensitive or i am short tempered. They expect ME to adapt to others' behaviours. Why should I? I am hurting them whenever I get angry at them. It is as if most of the times they dont even deserve it. I am a girl with just too many issues to deal with. I feel like there is a calling from the other world. A calling which I should respond to. I cant talk to anyone. People think that I wont really do it. They dont think im that determined. I might just prove them wrong.

airwolf282 · 07-05-2008, 10:57 AM

kavetha,

sorry things are hard for you right now. i don't have much advise to offer because i'm feeling the same way. maybe we can just hold off until our thinking is more clear. i know how difficult it is trying to keep friends when you get upset or angry very easily. can you confide in anyone and explain why this has been happening? you did good just by posting here because you will not be judged or criticized here.

nathan

madamoiselle · 09-05-2008, 03:52 AM

I read somewhere that one of the members of RYL stopped talking to people just like that..somwhere in the self injury forum. I am kind of in that position too. I have stopped talking to that group of friends just like that and to my suprise, they are in the game as well. I thought they would ask me whether I need help or I am feeling depressed but they just dont care. I am terribly hurt. Now they see me as a b**** and I am feeling like one too. I am too hurt that I just want to end it all. How can I ever come out of this? They say suicide is not the end...but if there is nothing that you can do to fix it...why even bother trying?

All I'm Living For · 09-05-2008, 04:09 AM

why bother trying? because it is possible to get passed this. because you dont want to ruin the lives of everyone that knows you, which would happen if you killed yourself (i know from experience because my bestest friend killed herself). because if you died you would never know if you could have gotten through this or not. because you would have let this beat you.
how can you ever come out of this? by getting some help. by goign to see a psyc or counsellor and telling them (you can write if you cant talk to them) about how you're feeling and get help to get you through this.
my friends stopped asking how i was not because they didnt care but because they didnt know how to help. just because your friends dont ask it does not mean that they dont care. just that they may not know how to help you or dont know how to deal with how your feeling themselves because its affects them too.
dont give up, dont die. its not worth the pain and suffering you'l cause everyone else.
*hugs*

soph.